mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Not A Song)
It's not a secret that I really enjoy external validation. This has been part of my identity since I was a kid. While I do derive some satisfaction out of the things I do, I've always liked it better when I played to an audience. Music, writing, cooking, whatever, I never enjoyed it more than when I could share it with other people. Sure, I can cook myself a nice meal, but why would I do that when I can cook a nice meal for more than just myself, and have other people enjoy it too? What's the point of writing a story if I'm going to shove it in a drawer, literally or metaphorically?

Cut for length )
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Vodka gods)
I am declaring this morning a write-off. Not only am I not feeling 100%, I am also really, really tired.

So, in spite of how this is going to f*ck up all my plans, I am staying home this morning. I am not going out to do my grocery shopping, I am not going to the YMCA the way I'd planned, and I am not stopping by Frigo Vert to check out the shiny bee product [livejournal.com profile] elanya and [livejournal.com profile] curtana recommended. I am not going to the bank to pay my Bell bill.

Don't ask me how I'm going to work all of that into next week's schedule, because I just don't know. I wasn't sure how I was going to get it all done today, for that matter. I do know that it involved getting up much earlier than I did, and not being on the brink of collapse.

I am going to do nothing for the next two hours except have breakfast, and putter. The cat pans have to be cleaned, dishes have to get done, and lunch has to be made (yes, technically it's dinner since I work late, but I still call it lunch. Go figure.).

I have made blueberry pancakes. Rather, I made pancakes and then added frozen blueberries. They turned my batter purple. I am amused. :)

I would like the world to stop for a minute, please. I'd like to get off the ride. Thank you for your understanding.

If it weren't 11am, I might dump some Bailey's in my coffee. I never mentioned that I got another bottle for my birthday, did I? I think it was [livejournal.com profile] fearsclave who enabled that particular time, but my memory is fuzzy these days. Thank you, generous benefactor, purveyor of Irish cream. :)

Going to stagger off and collapse now. Maybe I'll read some more John Seymour. I'm very amused that he seems to think everyone can easily keep a Jersey cow on their one-acre holding. :) Still, lots of interesting stuff in there, and he has a good writing style. I love how he never uses the word "manure" without qualifying it with "lovely."
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Dead Baby Possum)
Once again, I have found myself in that weird place I swore I'd leave behind, in which I have no time for anything anymore. No time and no energy.

Cut for whining )

Anyway, I don't know what to do about any of this. I'm just whining, I guess. Don't mind me.

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