mousme: A text icon in pale blue that reads Winter is Coming (Winter is Coming)
 I am less impressed with Brittany the professional organizer this time around. She did mention feeling a little under the weather today, so maybe I can chalk it up to that. When she was here organizing the kitchen with me she had lots of good ideas and helped corral my ADHD self so I wasn't spinning off in fourteen different directions. But both yesterday and today it felt more like I had to use a cattle prod to get her to do anything. I asked for suggestions a few times, and she made vaguely helpless noises and commiserated about it all being overwhelming. I not only had to tell her what to do at every step, but I also did most of the work while she watched unless I explicitly told her to do things. I won't lie, that's not what I was hoping for, at the price I'm paying for her services.

She was a little better today once we started tackling the basement, at least. I am hoping that tomorrow goes better too. There's more to pack and organize in the basement, and since we still had a little work to do in the garage we didn't get as far as I would have liked in the basement. We still managed to pack up about six boxes, filled four garbage bags, broke down two shelving units, and filled a giant Rubbermaid bin with stuff to donate. There are two bins full of KK's stuff that I've brought to the living room so she can go through them, because I honestly think that most of it is stuff she can likely get rid of. Whether she does or not will be up to her, I guess, but there won't be enough room in the house for them. She's taken next week off work, but she told me she has a doctor's appointment on Tuesday, so that will be at least half the day gone for her. I'm not confident she can pack up all her stuff in three and a half days, but I am trying not to stress about that. Her stuff is her responsibility, and I don't think it's fair for me to have to pack up my stuff, all the common areas, *and* her stuff too. 

I'm grateful at least that packing up the basement is proving less back-breaking than the garage. Given how limited my remaining packing time is, I think I'll try to start packing up my room tonight after I put the dogs to bed. I need to do several loads of laundry, and after I've done that I will be sorting out my clothing in order to pare down my wardrobe to the bare essentials. KK pointed out a detail that I missed, namely that my bedroom doesn't have a full closet but only a sort of cubby in the wall, so it will be even more important now to have as few clothes as possible. Otherwise my stuff simply won't fit in my bedroom, because there's nowhere else to put it, unless I hang it from the ceiling somehow. I'm going to have to investigate ways to expand that space: it might be just a question of cutting out a bit of drywall, or it might be more complicated than that. We shall see. 

God, there is still so much to do. *lies on the floor* It will get done, but my God, I wish there were less to do, or maybe a bit more time in which to do it.
mousme: A text icon in black text on yellow that reads The avalanche has started, it is too late for the pebbles to vote (Avalanche)
I'm writing from the future! *ooOooOooh* *spooky future noises*

I was so exhausted after yesterday's packing session that I could barely string two words together. I had to have a guy come in and replace the water meter first, and that was a whole ordeal of trying to corral the dogs and run the water and supervise the guy while he was in my basement. He took longer than I thought he would, so I had to request that Brittany, the professional organizer, delay her start time by half an hour.

We cleared out a huge chunk of the garage yesterday. There was so much recycling and garbage, it was actually pretty shocking. I think a lot of stuff had just gotten tossed in there to be dealt with later and then just never got dealt with. Also KK has a tendency to squirrel away garbage and recycling in various unexpected containers and then not tell me about it, so that I get a garbage-y surprise when I open said container months (or in this case, years) later. None of it was perishable, luckily, so it was just a matter of getting rid of it.

Yesterday was garbage day, but we have a three-item limit for garbage pickup, otherwise you have to buy very expensive city-produced yellow garbage bags, and I did have some on hand, which I bought knowing we'd likely need them for the move. I had bought two packs of four, and we filled five bags, which are annoyingly difficult to tie, incidentally. There's also a bunch of larger things that wouldn't fit in a garbage can and therefore count as "large" items. Each "large" item counts against your three-item limit for pickup, and you can't arrange for extra pickup for those, so I will be taking all this stuff to the dump, probably on Friday. 

I thought there would be more packing involved with the garage, but it turned out that once I cleared out all the garbage and recycling, what was left was already mostly packed up or not the kind of thing to be boxed up anyway. So that was a bit of a relief. There's still some work to be done: I have to empty the small pantry and also empty and defrost the freezer, but that will be a job for next week, especially the freezer. The small pantry can be packed into a couple of boxes pretty easily.

I wanted to take a very hot shower after I was done, but KK left to go to the pharmacy and decided to run the dishwasher, which meant I couldn't take a shower until well after she was back. I must say, the hot water felt glorious after the day spent clearing out the garage. I collapsed into a puddle in my bed after dinner, and that was the end of it. I did remember that I should post an update, but I decided it wasn't worth losing more sleep, and that I would backdate an entry today once Brittany was gone, which is what I have done!
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I have one of those twice-weekly reports to write for work tonight, and it's time-consuming and annoying, so I can't spend too long updating this journal just in case work gets busy later and I don't have time to get the report done. I do not want to have to explain that I didn't get my work done because I was blogging. That would look bad. ;)

I probably shouldn't stress too hard about it, because I routinely take, like, five hours or longer at work to update because I keep getting interrupted anyway. So I'm sure I'll get it all done. This report in particular stresses me out because there are no explicit instructions for how to prepare it, but it's somehow still extremely important to get it done exactly right. *headdesk* Also, I only write one once every four months or because it's specifically a night shift duty and my shift partner and I take turns to do it, so I am woefully lacking in practice. Nothing stresses me out more at work than being asked to do something I'm not familiar with AND for which I have no reliable blueprint. It is objectively the worst.

Tonight is my last night shift, and then I am off until my day shifts next weekend. So far no coworkers have agreed to a shift trade, although I am waiting for that one coworker to get back to me tomorrow (he won't be in until 3pm, though, so I won't find out until late in the day if he's accepted the trade). If he says no, which he likely will, because going from an evening shift directly to a 12 hour day shift with no break is goddamned brutal, I will simply have to suck it up and go to work next weekend.

That give me five days this week and four days next week to get everything packed. Normally I would spend the Monday after my night shifts sleeping, but obviously I can't waste all those precious packing hours on something as silly as sleep, so I'm going to take a brief nap when I get home and then get up and start packing. I have asked KK to help me with packing tomorrow because it's a statutory holiday, but I'm not sure how much help she will actually be. Tomorrow being a stat holiday means that I won't be able to go to U-Haul to buy more boxes, because I'm 99% sure they'll be closed for everyday purchases (albeit likely not for van rentals and that sort of thing), and rightly so. Employees deserve their statutory holidays, and should have the day off like everyone else.

So, yeah. I should probably make some aspirational packing goals for this week, so I'll know how hard I failed by the time the weekend rolls around. ;)

Okay. Report writing time! Wish me luck. Catch you on the flip side, friends!


mousme: The silhouettes from MST3K with the written caption Oscar Wilde only wished he was this gay (Oscar Wilde)
You know, if all that was required of me to be successful in life was making plans, I would be acing this whole "being a successful human" thing. I love making plans, the more detailed, the better. The problem, of course, is that to actually succeed at things, you have to enact said plans, and that is where everything kind of falls apart for me.

KK kind of falls into the same category as me, and we are pretty terrible about enabling each other at making plans and then following through on maybe 10% of them. To be fair, it's a lot of fun to make plans, and I don't mind too much if all the low-stakes, castles-in-Spain plans don't come to fruition. It's actually really fun to talk about these things and throw ideas back and forth and build it up in our imaginations. I don't know if she is quite as aware as I am that our reach might exceed our grasp in a lot of cases, but I suspect she is.

I am also well aware of my propensity to make grand plans to completely turn my life around while I'm working night shifts (I talked about in in a previous post a few weeks ago, during another round of night shifts), and I have just come to accept it as one of my brain's quirky little ways of generating dopamine, so I just let it happen now and try not to convince myself that this time will totally be different, no, really! As long as I can accept that this is just an exercise in making my brain go *brrrt*, and that I have no expectations of actually doing anything about it, then it's a harmless little pastime during slower night shifts.

Right now I am trying to make sensible plans for packing up the house next week. Working 12-hour shifts this weekend means I won't get anything done, and there is no sense in deluding myself into thinking that I will somehow manage to do anything other than sleep and go to work. My current ambitious plan is to try to get a lot of packing done on Monday, when normally I'd spend a chunk of the day sleeping after my night shift. Don't get me wrong, I will still sleep when I get home, but it will be more of a two-hour power nap and then I'll aim to go to bed very early as a way of shifting over my sleep schedule as quickly as possible.

Tuesday through Thursday I've hired the professional organizer I had hired back in... March? I think? *checks calendar* Nope, first week of April. ANYWAY. I have hired her to come for six hours a day to help me pack up the garage and, if there's enough time, the basement. I am reasonably confident that I can pack up the upstairs on my own (minus KK's room and bathroom), and if I have friends able and willing to help pack the kitchen and dining room, that will also be really helpful. I might be able to do it on my own, but only time will tell.

So far most of the coworkers I have asked for a shift switch have said no, which is sad but not unexpected. I have two coworkers left who might be able to help me out. One is coming in for a shift today, and the other won't be in until Monday, so if the first one says no I'll just have to log into my email account from home to see if the second is willing to take one for the team. He very well might, since I agreed to swap weekends with him back in November so he could take his wife to go see Taylor Swift in Toronto, but it will of course be dependent on whether he has other commitments lined up already. Getting the weekend off to pack would be ideal, but if I can't get it, I will cope.

I have set one boundary with regards to the packing with KK, and that's that I expect her to pack up her own shit. I am by far the more able-bodied of the two of us, so I don't mind that I'm probably going to end up packing up most of the house on my own. I need her to still be physically functional by the time moving day arrives, so I'm perfectly willing to take that on. What I am not willing to take on, however, is packing up her office or her bedroom or her bathroom. Those three rooms are all on her, and I told her that many weeks ago. Like me, she hasn't started packing yet, but I don't plan on bailing her out at the last minute. Whatever she hasn't packed is just going to get left behind, and she can figure out how to get it delivered to the house. The chances of her not being ready in time are not super high, but they're also not zero, either. But I can't be responsible for myself, the whole house, the pets, AND her stuff. So she gets to be responsible for that.

Somewhere in the next ten days I am going to lose at least half a day to attend the closing for the house. I haven't heard from the lawyer, come to think of it, so I'll shoot them an email to make sure everything is still good on that front, or if they need more information from me or something. Great. Another thing to be paranoid about. Well, at least it should be a relatively easy fix, and it's 10 days before my official closing date (and more than one business week), so hopefully there's nothing to worry about. Anyway, I assume the closing will be done at the lawyer's office in Cornwall, so I'll have to drive out there and back, and even if it takes an hour or less to sign all the paperwork, it means at least a three hour trip, possibly longer.

I think it's still doable, God help me. I may just be deluding myself, but I am an incurable optimist when it comes to these things. I guess we'll find out!

All right, time to close out this night shift. I have a little over two hours left before I can go home and get some sleep. Catch you on the flip side, friends!

mousme: A text icon in pale blue that reads Winter is Coming (Winter is Coming)
The panic hasn't set in yet. I'm moving in two weeks, have got absolutely nothing done, and am fighting against a rising tide of mystery tired. The panic is supposed to trigger adrenaline which in turn will lead to packing, but right now all I've managed to do is go to work, sleep, and put food in my body. I haven't even been eating particularly healthy lately, because I haven't had the wherewithal to cook. I'm not eating absolute junk, but there's been a lot of frozen meals and snack foods.

I don't know if the current amount of tired I'm feeling is the remnants of Covid, or the result of working a fuckton of shifts in a row including evenings, weekends, and now nights, or the result of being stressed and out of shape, or if I'm just one of the unlucky people who don't ever get to feel better when using a CPAP. Or an unholy combination of any or all of it.

*screams into the void*

Yes, I am being melodramatic. It will pass, I promise. ;) Right now, though, all of my feelings are "Woe, and darkness, and teh sad." I really, really wish that my brain's reaction to stress wasn't to go directly into overwhelm and shutdown. It would be so  nice if I had socially acceptable dysfunctional coping mechanisms, you know? I could be a compulsive cleaner, or a compulsive exerciser, but noooooo. I stress eat and procrastinate and doomscroll or play video games. The closest I've come to a "productive" coping mechanism is occasionally baking cookies or making soup.

*lies on the floor*

*screams into the void some more*

I had my meeting with the two M&C folks today, and they were so nice and so sweet to me, and even suggested that I have a "packing party" to get the house packed up. I will see how I get on with packing until the end of next week, and if I'm still in as much trouble as I think I'm in now, I will put up a plea for help on Facebook.

I think part of it is that I haven't had enough sleep this week. I got no sleep on Monday, then only six hours of sleep on Tuesday, and barely scraped together five non-consecutive hours yesterday (because of the aforementioned meeting). I am going to sleep as much as I can today because I have to get up early again tomorrow to go to the credit union. It has also been ungodly hot the past few days, thank you climate change. 
mousme: A text icon in pale blue that reads Winter is Coming (Winter is Coming)
I didn't get a nap in before I had to go to work, and now I am extremely tired and my head hurts. My back also hurts, but that's because I changed out the quail enclosures and then wrangled cats and dogs to the vet, not because I didn't nap. I wish napping fixed back pain, honestly, it would make my life so much easier. I am very sad that I didn't get to nap. I feel like a nap would have made everything a lot more tolerable.

I didn't get any packing done, either. I know: surprise, surprise. I am my own worst enemy these days. Even if I get some packing done this week while I'm on night shifts, I'm definitely going to have to rely on adrenaline-fueled panic in the two weeks before we move. I think I can get it done, but it's going to be a stressful time, for sure.

I am still torn about whether or not to bring some of my furniture with me. I think there simply isn't enough room for most of my bedroom furniture, even with a Murphy bed installed. Part of me wants to bring it anyway and store it in the garage, because eventually I want to tear down the garage (the home inspector said it will need to come down in a few years no matter what) and build what would essentially be an extension to the house. More to the point, I want to build out some extra independent living space just in case one or both of my parents ends up needing to come live with us. So I was thinking an extra bedroom or two, a bathroom, and either a kitchenette or a kitchen, depending on space and how much it would all cost. I obviously don't have the money now (especially not now that my cats need dental surgery), but I am being given a HELOC (Home Equity Line of Credit) to accompany the house, and I might be able to use it for the construction costs. I definitely can't afford to build an entire new house, but something simple might well be doable. I'll have to look into what permits I'd need and what is and isn't allowed on the property, of course, but I like this plan. Of course, we all know what happens to the best-laid plans of mice and men...

Speaking of the cats' dental surgery, I have a sneaking suspicion that we're going to have to switch all the cats over to wet food, at least in part. The vet said he wouldn't make recommendations for food until after the surgery, since we don't know how many teeth are going to need to come out, but even so, adding wet food is probably a good idea. Of course, that is going to be wildly expensive, so I am thinking of starting some rabbit breeding ahead of schedule (I was going to start next year) and use the meat and organs as a base to make my own raw/wet food for the cats. I'll have to consult with my vet to see how complicated the nutrition aspect is for cats (I have heard horror stories about people feeding their pets inadequate "raw food" diets) so that I don't accidentally deprive them of essential nutrients.

I feel like I had more I wanted to post about, but my brain is kind of mush right now, so I guess I'll call it here and hope I remember whatever it was later on today.

Catch you on the flip side, folks!
mousme: A text icon, white text on green, that reads Zathras trained in crisis management (Crisis Management)
We're meant to be losing at least some connectivity at work tonight starting in a little over 20 minutes, so I'm doing a very quick update just so as not to lose my "post every day" streak. Yes, these things preoccupy me, don't ask. ;)

I am really hoping it's a minor inconvenience. In theory we have backup systems, but there's a non-zero chance we will have to relocate to another building, which is a huge pain in the ass. We have to pack up laptops and cell phones and binders into backpacks and lug them on foot for several blocks to another building, then have a fight with that building's infrastructure in order to get everything connected, and none of it works quite right nor quite the way we're used to working at our regular workstations. It's inconvenient and annoying, but nothing worse than that.

More annoying is that I have to work this weekend, since I switched with a colleague last month, and so I'm going to spend most of tomorrow and maybe also Sunday mopping up the backlog that this outage is going to cause, which is yet another annoying, inconvenient pain in my ass. 

In the spirit of maybe finally starting to get my act together (hah), I went out today and acquired some more moving boxes. Specifically I got wardrobe boxes, boxes for dishware and glasses, a pack of small book boxes (good for books, CDs, DVDs, and small but heavy items), and a bunch of bubble wrap. I've asked KK to get a start this weekend on clearing the trash out of the living room, in the hopes that that will clear some space to start a staging area for packing on Monday. I don't know if she'll do it, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed. I likely won't have much time to pack this weekend, but at least I have more materials now, which seems like a step in the right direction.

In the meantime, I am going to have a very short night of sleep tonight. I work until midnight, won't get to bed until probably 1:30 or 2:00, and then I have to be up again at 6:00 in order to get to work on time for 7:45 for my 12-hour shift. *weeps a little*

I had a preliminary conversation with the recruiter about WillScott Mobile (technically the recruiter is from a firm called Duffy Group, I think), and I think it's worth exploring further for now. I think I mentioned that they're located closer to my home than my current work, and it looks like they may have free parking, whereas parking downtown is $24 a day. It might not turn out to be a money saver if I have to drive in every day due to the cost of gas, but I'd have to crunch the numbers to be absolutely certain. I suspect I'd probably end up breaking even, or somewhere close.

Okay, connectivity thing has started. I will try to post this and hope for the best. Fingers crossed, and see you on the flip side, friends!

mousme: A text icon, dark green text on pale green, that reads There is no normal life. There's just life. (No Normal Life)
I have just enough energy to do an 8 hour shift at work, and not much else. I'm still pretty congested, and although I didn't bother testing today I'm quite sure it would come back positive if I did. I also sound like something crawled into my throat and died. I've had a few clients tell me so over the phone. Oops? I assured them the Government of Ontario has declared me perfectly healthy, and yet somehow they were still skeptical.

The oil splash over my right hand yesterday has turned into two very impressive looking blisters on my ring finger and knuckle. They're still a little painful, but nothing terrible. It mostly looks like I've developed a highly localized case of bubonic plague, although maybe not quite so dire. I wish there was a lesson to be learned from this about kitchen safety, but it was honestly a freak thing, and I was merely the victim of the laws of physics.

I got an amusing call from someone from Ministry & Counsel on my way to work, asking me to help him troubleshoot issues with his new laser printer of all things. Now, faithful readers will likely recall that I am not exactly a computer wizard, and indeed my coworkers have joked for years that I have a "computer curse," wherein computers will randomly malfunction around me in ways that don't make sense. Anyway, I explained that I was driving to work and generally not a computer person, and then I suggested Googling the problem because that's my go-to when first trying to troubleshoot computer issues. Now, this guy used to be a really savvy computer person, but he hasn't kept up with all the latest advances, so it wasn't like I was talking to a babe in arms. He thanked me and told me he'd try it before hitting up one of his techy friends. I am still baffled but also slightly honoured at the thought that I project enough competence that people now randomly call me to help with completely unrelated stuff! XD

In house news, I'm going to need to find some extra energy somewhere in order to start packing up the house properly. I've hired someone to come help pack in two weeks' time, the week before the move, but it's only for three days, and that won't be enough to get it all done. It should be a huge help, at least, to have one other able-bodied person there. In the meantime, I need to pack up as much of the rest of the house as I can.

I feel like the most boring person ever, because I have very little of substance to post about lately. Hopefully I will have something more interesting soon. Thanks for bearing with me, friends, and I will catch you on the flip side!
mousme: A text icon, white text on green, that reads Zathras trained in crisis management (Crisis Management)
I'm still symptomatic and testing positive, but according to the Government of Ontario I am A-Okay to go back to work and spread Covid to my coworkers because my symptoms are "improving," I have no fever, and I have no new symptoms since yesterday. All I have to do is wear a mask, and problem solved, I guess!

I think my supervisor and boss are both aware of how ridiculous this requirement is, but they have to tell me to come back to work because them's the rules. FFS. This is the height of absurdity, and I will never not be mad at all of our governments for selling out public health in the name of "the economy." HOW WELL IS YOUR ECONOMY DOING NOW, MOTHERFUCKERS? HUH?

Anyway, I am annoyed. Hopefully this won't set me back too badly. I will be working for the next... *counts* 14 days straight because I agreed to switch weekends with a coworker last month, and now those chickens are coming home to roost. Alas. I needed the weekend off last month, so I can't bring myself to regret it totally, but it's still going to be really difficult, especially if I'm still sick.

And somewhere in there I have to pack up the house. *weeps*

In other annoying news, I've given myself a second-degree burn on my right ring finger and knuckle due to an ill-timed oil splash on the stove. Thanks, I hate it.

I'm sure I can get it all done, because there's nothing quite like adrenaline-fueled panic packing, but it's probably going to suck out loud.

All right. I have a video appointment to get to, and I need to order groceries as well. Thank goodness for grocery deliveries, they are an absolute godsend. Catch you on the flip side, friends!
mousme: A text icon that reads: "When the sun has set, no candle can replace it." (Sun has set)
I'm still at work for the next little bit, but I'm not sure I'll have time to write anything in depth in that time. The nature of my work is such that interruptions are all but inevitable.

I woke up with my lungs feeling a little sore, but some quick googling tells me that's not uncommon when first starting to use a CPAP, because your lungs are filling up a bit more than they're accustomed to at night, and your chest muscles work a little harder to exhale against the forced air. The discomfort didn't last very long, so I'm not too worried about it.

The quail laid a second egg for me this morning! They've been steadily laying one egg a day in the evenings, and I collected one last night, then found another egg this morning when I went to change out their food and water today. Tomorrow I shall be making myself unpopular with them because it will be time to change out their bedding. They've been doing well with the pine shavings I got them, but the bedding gets disgusting after a little while, so a full change is required. I am going to research the "deep litter" method when we move, since apparently that requires less regular cleaning out, and I hear it works well for poultry, especially in the winter.

I have D&D tonight after a long-ish hiatus, because we are all adults with lives and commitments, and scheduling is HARD. Since D&D is a basement activity for me (that's where the computer desk is), I will do my best to do some packing tonight too, since I'll be down there anyway. I ordered some pre-printed packing labels to help with identifying boxes, and I need to pick up some extra Sharpie pens and maybe figure out how to clearly identify what's in each box in a more efficient way than simply scribbling on the side in Sharpie. :P (Suggestions welcome, btw!)

I have reached out to two moving companies already for quotes, and am thinking I might try for one or two more. I want a quote for how much it would cost if we do all our own packing and for if I pay for someone else to do all the packing. I suspect the latter is going to be way too expensive, but it's worth asking, at least. I assume they'll want to do a walkthrough of the house to get an idea of just how much stuff there is (so much stuff), so I'm going to need to get the house tidied and semi-organized before they arrive. At least that should light a fire under me to get the ball rolling.

My goal this weekend is to get the entire basement packed up minus my computer desk, which I'm still going to need for the next few weeks. I'm also going to do a serious purge of my closet. There's a bunch of clothes I just don't wear anymore anyway, so I may as well donate the ones that are in good shape and toss the ones that can't be donated. Then I need to get rid of a bunch of the stuff that I don't need or use anymore, and pack up whatever I won't need for the next six weeks or so (books, old CDs, etc.). I'm going to ask KK to put one of our portable A/C units up for sale, since we're not using them anymore and the new place has central A/C. That will free up some space and put a tiny bit of money toward the move.

I think it's all doable, or at least I hope so.

Anyway, it will soon be time to go home, so I will catch you on the flip side, friends!
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Yes, I am absolutely writing this post during my work hours. Shh. More seriously, I don't think my boss cares particularly what I do as long as my work gets completed promptly and accurately, so I'm safe on that front. Today so far hasn't been a super busy day. Currently the only important thing going on is some ongoing tests for a distress alert on a specific vessel, and while that requires me to be responsive, it's not particularly labour intensive. I am most of the way through my shift, and rather looking forward to going home. 

I'm writing my update early today in the hopes of shaving off the time spent on it in the evening. Yesterday, after I finished writing I went upstairs and got sort of waylaid by KK who had approximately seven thousand things she wanted to discuss, and the next thing I knew it was 11:30pm and all my good intentions about going to bed early had gone out the window. KK is very much a night owl, but I am not, and I cannot function on that little sleep. To be fair, neither can she, but she has fewer negative consequences for it than I do. For instance, her workplace is pretty tolerant of her taking a mid-work nap, whereas where I work we don't even get a lunch break. If she oversleeps then she can choose to work from home that day and make it up another day, but I have people waiting for me to take over their operations desk, so I can't afford to oversleep or be late.

So I am trying to lessen the number of things to do right before bed, and updating my little daily blog is one of them. I still want to keep writing a little bit every day, so really it will just depend on what else I have going on that day: what shift I'm working, what other errands and chores I have planned, etc. I have technically broken my streak once, on the Saturday I got the quail, and that's only because I got home so late and then had to set up the quail in their new home, that by the time I got around to updating it was already technically Sunday. Oops. I decided that didn't count, because in shift-work logic, it's not the next day until you've gone to sleep and woken up again. :P

The second night with the CPAP went a little less well. I was perhaps a bit less tired than the day before, due to working from home, and so I was more aware of the mask being on my face during the night. The head strap was also a little loose and kept shifting up on my head, so I awoke a couple of times to pull it back down. Overall, though, the night went by fine, and tonight I will tighten the strap and hope it dos the trick. The CPAP noted that I had something like 1.2 events per hour, which is even better than yesterday, so I'm counting it a win.

I have lost the habit of meal planning for the week, and really need to start that up again. I don't have a plan for tonight yet. I am going to skip making ground chicken to spare me and KK the same thing for a million days in a row, but otherwise I haven't thought it through at all.  I'm sure I'll be able to come up with something on the fly, but I saved myself a lot of time and hassle and mental bandwidth by planning ahead. I also have a lot of stuff in our freezers I'd like to get through before we move, so that I don't have to worry about moving that much frozen food over a long distance on the same day. I will have to especially focus on the large chest freezer and see what I can get rid of in there (there are a few things KK brought with her that I've never touched that I'm pretty sure she's forgotten about entirely) and what I can cook up in the next few weeks so that I can then empty it completely and then defrost it in anticipation of the move. We won't be able to get through everything that's in all the chest freezers, because I purposefully built up our food reserves to last for three to four months, but I think I can get it to a more manageable level for the move.

I am determined to find a ladder and get over myself about packing for the move this weekend. I've been meaning to pack the living room area for a week now, and keep not doing it, so I'm changing tactics. This weekend I shall pack up the basement, or as much of it as I can humanly manage. The good news is that a lot of it is already in Rubbermaid bins, so realistically all I have to do is label them and stack them neatly. I plan on dismantling most of the shelving, and getting as much of it squared away in order to make room for more packing boxes. The only thing I won't be able to pack away right off is my computer and computer desk, and the latter won't fit in the new house. I don't know yet if I'm going to try to hang onto it and maybe set it up in the little workshop area, or if I should sell it or give it away. It's pretty new (I got it in 2021) and it's a really good computer desk. However, it won't fit in my new bedroom (again, 9 feet by 9 feet is not the most spacious of areas), even if I install a Murphy bed. I may be absolutely crazy, but I could try installing an adult-appropriate loft bed (i.e. one that won't break my back and has some sort of shelf system that would serve as a night stand), but then that would definitely preclude having my parents overnight. With even a double Murphy bed I can give them my room for the night and sleep on a cot in the living room, but most loft beds are twin sized, and my 87 year old mother with a a bad hip certainly can't manage a ladder or steps even if did find one that was a size or two larger.

Argh. Logistics.

In a few years I would like to build a "Bunkie" on the property, which is basically a glorified shed, and I'd probably turn that either into guest quarters or into a home office for myself, but that's a pretty big purchase and certainly not one I can afford right now. So the problem of the desk remains. I may be able to wrap it securely in plastic and store it in the garage for that mythical future date when I can use it again, which is a decision unto itself. Am I just hoarding, or am I hanging onto an item with genuine future use? WHO KNOWS. The same desk costs about twice as much now as when I bought it thanks to inflation, and now that tariffs and trade wars are happening, that new price may double or even triple by the time I would buy another desk, and it might not be as good. Am I just dealing with a scarcity mindset or being fiscally prudent? GOOD QUESTION.

So, yes, welcome to Thinking About Packing With Phnee. It's like packing, only a lot less productive and lot more anxiety-ridden. :P

Okay, time to get back to work. Catch you on the flip side, friends!
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Tomorrow morning I have my appointment with the sleep specialist. I cannot emphasize enough how excited I am about this! The appointment is at 8:15 and they want me to arrive half an hour early, so I'll be leaving around 7:00 just to be on the safe side. I don't know what the traffic is like going there at that hour, and I don't want to be late. I hope that I'll be leaving with a prescription for a CPAP in hand, and it's my intention to get an appointment with a local provider I found ASAP. In fact, the plan is to call the minute I get out of the appointment and see how quickly I can get an appointment.

Have I mentioned that I am TIRED of constantly feeling like warmed-over crap?

Anyway, I am very excited about the appointment tomorrow. I hope it goes well. If it doesn't, I may very well cry. I wonder if I can get a same-day appointment. That would be ideal, but I'm not going to get my hopes up too high for that. I do hope I can get an appointment this week, though, and that they can accommodate a later time since I don't have a ton of time available to take off work. We shall see, I guess.

In unrelated news, the quail are still doing well. I changed out their food and water this morning, and once I'd closed the door behind me I heard some very loud and indignant tweedling. I initially shrugged it off, but the tweedling repeated as I went up the stairs, so I went back to investigate. I checked the quail's bin, and as I was puzzling over it I heard more loud and indignant tweedling and realized that one of the boys had managed to get out of the enclosure and was standing under the sink, making his displeasure known. I think he was mostly mad about being separated from his friends and girlfriends, or maybe he thought they'd make a break for freedom with him. Either way, I scooped him up and put him back, and he immediately settled down.

I now have four eggs! It's very exciting. I don't know which of the females is being such a good layer, but I am certainly not complaining. It might not be just one, either, but I have a completely unsubstantiated feeling that all the eggs are from one bird. I hope the other two get in on the action soon. Three small eggs a day is the equivalent of one normal chicken egg per day, which means a total of about five to seven eggs a week, if all the ladies lay regularly. I'm kind of excited for my first quail egg dish. I don't know if I should make a really simple omelette or if I should look up a recipe specific for quail eggs. I am tempted to at least do some research on that front. Quail eggs are considered a delicacy by many, after all.

I had my weekly Sunday Skype call with my parents. I tried to get them onto Zoom since Skype is disappearing in three weeks, but my mother especially is attached to Skype, so we're sticking with that to the bitter end, apparently. My mother is anxious about my move, and as usual her anxiety is translating into her getting super passive-aggressive and slightly nasty with me. This is not a trait I particularly enjoy, because among other things she tends to talk to me as though I am a developmentally disabled child who's playing with missile launchers. It particularly annoys me when she condescendingly explains to me that I will need to make a budget, and then tries to explain home maintenance to me while not knowing the difference between a septic holding tank, a propane tank, and a sump pump (literally the conversation we had today, no exaggeration).

Anyway, I have been dealing with my mother for 46 years now, and because I am an adult with good communication tools now and enough empathy to understand that it's my mother's rampant undiagnosed anxiety disorder causing her to act this way, I gently called her out on her behaviour and eventually redirected her energy to something more positive. She initially denied that she was being nasty, but eventually kind of grudgingly semi-admitted to it. The rest of the Skype call went much more smoothly after that, and she was in a much better mood by the time we ended the call.

I made a pseudo-roast chicken in the Instant Pot for dinner, and now I have leftovers for the week to go with my borscht, as well as rice, and a package of spicy lentil something-or-other that my friend Sarah gave to me last weekend. She's allergic to dairy and accidentally bough the packet even though it contains both butter and cream. Since it's spicy and has tomatoes KK won't touch it with a ten-foot pole, so that means I get to have it for lunch, which sounds delightful. KK tolerates lentils but only up to a point, so adding spice and tomatoes is literally a recipe for disaster.

I definitely need to step up my packing game this week. I've been feeling overwhelmed about things, so I think I will start in my bedroom instead of the living room, because it will (I HOPE, DEAR GOD) be easier to make decisions about de-cluttering and the like. I plan on significantly downsizing my wardrobe, which I've been meaning to do for a while anyway. I have a dresser and a night table that I need to empty, as well as my small library of reference books. I also need to get rid of my terrible broken air conditioning unit anyway, which should free up a fair bit of space for staging my boxes. I should probably consider paring down some of my linens, too. I need to let go of some of my prepper tendencies here and embrace some minimalism where it comes to my immediate possessions.

Okay. Time to get to bed so I won't accidentally oversleep tomorrow and miss my sleep appointment. Catch you on the flip side, friends!
mousme: A text icon, dark green text on pale green, that reads There is no normal life. There's just life. (No Normal Life)
I overslept this morning for the first time in a very long time. I've been waking up anywhere between 4:30 and 7:30 am for the last three weeks or so, and because I've often had external commitments of various kinds, I've been crowbarring myself out of bed almost immediately and just getting on with my day. Today was the first day in all that time that I didn't have an immediate reason to get up, and so my brain took that as a sign that I should just sleep until 10:30. By the time I showered and got dressed and got the dogs organized, it was nearly 11:30 (I know, poor dogs, but they forgave me).

KK wanted to go to City Hall today for our Solemn Declarations, so we hopped in the car almost immediately and drove off. I suppose I should explain, because I haven't properly done it before except in bits and bobs here and there, and never completely. Because people have asked: no, KK and I are not romantic partners (she is lamentably straight, but also not the type I would be romantically attracted to anyway), but we have decided to become common-law spouses. We're forming a weird little family unit because we are compatible in every other way and are basically Platonic Life Partners™ at this  point. Neither one of us has any plans to move out, we share all the household expenses, and it just makes sense. So the Solemn Declaration is to officially inform the Federal Government of our marital status, and it's for the purposes of estate planning so that we each get to be the other's beneficiary for the federal pension after we retire.

I got home, and somehow the day kind of frittered away, and the next thing I knew it was time to get dinner started. I had ordered a little chick feeder and waterer for the quail, and the package came during dinner, so after dinner I checked on the quail and changed out their entire litter, since I'd decided to stop separating the males and the hens today (they kept jumping over the barrier to visit with each other anyway). The feeder and waterer are smaller than I'd like, so I may order a second set depending on how quickly they go through the food and water in a day. I will check the levels tomorrow and go from there. I also got another egg today! I initially thought there was nothing, but it turned out one was buried in their bedding, so clearly one of the ladies is feeling pretty relaxed and productive.

I didn't get any packing done today. I am honestly feeling a little overwhelmed, and the overwhelm is leading to paralysis, but this is a terrible idea for packing up the house. I don't have the time, energy, or stamina to do a last-minute packing rush in, say, the last 10 days to a week before the move. There's just too much to do. I'm going to have to find a way to snap myself out of the overwhelm. If I can pack at least three boxes a day, then that will keep things on track for me to move around May 28th, but that will require me to actually DO that, and so far I am batting zero. Ugh.

Actually, that reminds me of a cute flow chart I saw the other day that went sort of like this: This task feels too overwhelming ---> I will break it down into smaller steps ---> I have too many tasks and now I feel overwhelmed ---> I will consolidate them into one task ---> This task feels too overwhelming.

The struggle is real, what can I say?

Okay. Time for bed. Catch you on the flip side, friends!

Egg!

Apr. 10th, 2025 08:40 pm
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The quail laid their first egg today. I am very excited! The first egg is always the most exciting. I expected the quail to need at least two weeks to de-stress and feel comfortable enough to lay, but here we are, four days later, with our first egg! Quail eggs are so pretty, I love the speckling. I will put it carefully in an egg carton and wait for more eggs to appear now (it might take a while). It's about three quail eggs to make the equivalent of one chicken egg, so it's going to take a minute for me to have enough eggs to do anything meaningful. Once we've moved I'm going to buy an incubator and hopefully hatch out more quail, and I may look around for local suppliers to get different genetic material into the breeding pool, just to be on the safe side.

I am going to have to be careful about how much money I spend on the chicken math. ;) This move is going to be incredibly expensive (dear God, the lawyer's fees and land transfer tax ALONE make me want to weep), not to mention I need to get some furniture and equipment to maintain the property. I bought some packing supplies today, and of course things have gone up in price thanks to recent economic shenanigans. I remember when I bought my house in 2011 that it felt like I was hemorrhaging money the first 12 to 18 months of owning that house, and I suspect this will be no different, and probably worse, given how much more property there is and how much more there is to do. *sigh* Being an adult is HARD.

I spent most of today being useless with a migraine, which checks out. I don't get migraines often anymore, but they've always had a tendency to hit hardest right after a period of stress, once I've let my guard down. Once I was sufficiently recovered I pulled the beets out of the vegetable crisper and made borscht. The recipe makes a truly industrial quantity of the stuff, which is too bad because KK won't touch it with a 10-foot pole, and that means I am going to be eating borscht for the next week. XD I'm not too mad about it, but it would make life so much simpler if KK ate more "peasant" foods, not to mention how much cheaper it would be to feed the two of us. I'm hoping 

All righty. It's time to take myself to bed. Catch you on the flip side, friends!
mousme: A text icon, white text on green, that reads Zathras trained in crisis management (Crisis Management)
 We got the house! *giddy dancing*

Today has been an absolute tidal wave of documents to sign: the waiver for the conditions, the representation agreement for my real estate agent (because our old one expired--oops!), a couple of minor counter-offers from the sellers about the exact closing date and a request to keep their loft beds, which I gladly accepted. I then had to contact one of the lawyers recommended by my real estate agent, and I will have to pay out a truly staggering amount of money for that particular service (as well as land transfer fees and the like).

I am very excited!

I also immediately began panicking about how much packing there is to do before we move. The new closing date, instead of being June 4th, is now May 26th. That means we have exactly six weeks and four days to pack up this nightmare of a hoarders' house before then. Of course we won't be moving on the closing date itself, but since that week is my week off from work it only makes sense to move sometime during that week so that I don't have to take extra time off work to make it happen.

Right now I'm in the initial planning stages of the packing. Mostly my concern is that I have nowhere in this house to use as a staging area for boxes the way I normally do, because there's just no room anywhere anymore. Previously I would have used the living room, but KK will likely not put up with that sort of thing for six weeks, so I'll have to come up with something else. I don't really want to use the basement, which is already kind of full, and it means navigating the stairs with a lot of boxes, both taking them down and then bringing them back up, because I can all but guarantee that movers won't want to navigate my death stairs any more than absolutely necessary, but I think it may end up being my best bet.

I want to break the house down into "zones" that I will give myself a certain number of days each to pack up, and hope I'm not woefully underestimating the amount of time it will take to pack everything. I know for instance that the kitchen is going to take much longer to pack up than I anticipate, because that's what ALWAYS happens when I pack up a kitchen. There are too many small bits and bobs, and wrapping up fragile plates and cups is fiddly and time consuming, so I need to give myself at least a week to pack that up. The basement and the garage are currently nightmares (especially the garage, oh God), but I might do as I've done in the past and rent a small U-Haul van and move a bunch of the gardening tools and other things that aren't as easy to pack into boxes myself.

Okay, all that stress has tired me out. :P Time for bed. Catch you on the flip side, friends!
mousme: A text icon, dark green text on pale green, that reads There is no normal life. There's just life. (No Normal Life)
Everything is settled about the house purchase except for the infamous desktop appraisal, and of course everything hinges on that. If it doesn't come back in my favour that may scuttle my chances of purchasing the home entirely. Given how late it is today, I doubt I'll hear back before tomorrow. The deadline is tomorrow at the end of the day (either end of business or 8pm, my real estate agent couldn't remember which), but the external company isn't obligated to stick to my deadline, because it's more of a me problem than a them problem. My only role is to pay them money, it would seem, and keep my fingers crossed that they provide an answer in time (and really hope it works out in my favour).

So I just have to wait for another 24 hours. God, I hate waiting so much, especially for big things like this. I am really bad at uncertainty.

There was a mix-up at the hair salon with my online reservation for an appointment, so I will have to continue dealing with my hair looking like someone took a weed whacker to it for a few more weeks at least. Boo. I suppose it's not a bad thing, since I have spent most of my available money on house hunting stuff.

What they don't tell you when you're buying a house is just how many extra expenses there are before, during, and right after the purchase. There's a deposit for the house (not the same as a down payment) to provide along with an accepted offer, building inspectors, surprise desktop appraisals, then the actual purchase of the home, lawyers' fees, closing costs, moving costs, the welcome tax, and then a score of smaller costs as you try to fill in the gaps in equipment needed for the maintenance of your home.

Anyway, today was a reasonably productive day. I got up at a halfway reasonable hour in order to get out to a local feed store to get quail feed and suitable bedding in the form of pine chips. The quail are very happy with their new bedding, and are just as enthusiastic about the new food as they were about the old food, so it's hard to say if they like it the same or more. I also got them a small lamp with a bulb that mimics daylight, and KK pulled out an extra timer she had in her room, so now the quail can get a lot more light during the day, and a little bit of light even if I forget to turn on the main overhead light (or oversleep one day). I'm glad I have them settled in with more appropriate food: quail need more protein than you typically get in chicken layer feed, so I didn't want to keep them waiting longer than absolutely necessary. They are super cute, and a lot more active now that they've had a chance to settle in. I hope to get some eggs once all the stress they underwent for the auction and subsequent move to my house goes away.

In related news, I will require supervision the next time I go to Ritchie's Feed & Seed Garden Centre. There is everything there that an aspiring homesteader could want, including beginner bee hives! I just got the quail, so even if we do get the property I won't be adding any new livestock to the equation until I'm confident I can adequately care for the animals I have, even on a bad day. The bad days have to be my bar, not my good days, because even on a bad day all the animals will need to be fed and watered and potentially have their living spaces cleared out, so I have to be absolutely sure they won't be neglected. That being said, I have a long list of critters I'd like to get, supposing that we're able to purchase this property. Probably more than I would ever be able to manage, but my goodness I want them. XD

I am still spectacularly tired. I've had next to no break for two weeks now, because I scheduled the professional organizer in on all my days off last week, and then I had the bird auction and other sundries on Saturday, and yesterday of course was the mostly impromptu trip to Montreal. So I've had some very long and very busy days. The plan is to go to bed as early as possible tonight to try to get myself back on track, sleep-wise. I'm going to my follow-up appointment for the sleep study in exactly one week, which is pretty exciting. I am hopeful there will be better quality sleep and therefore more energy and better health really soon!

If the house purchase goes through (and it's anybody's guess at this point, because house valuations are 100% arbitrary), then I will be spending the rest of the week making a packing plan, getting some packing supplies, and starting the packing process. We'll only have 60 days to downsize a lot of stuff from the house (and I'm guessing it will be mostly my stuff because KK doesn't like parting from her things) and pack up the rest of it, and given KK's physical limitations I think it's a safe bet that I will be doing most of the downsizing and packing. I do plan on keeping all the receipts for moving supplies and asking her to chip in for about half, and I do expect her to do her own packing when it comes to her bedroom and her office space. I think it's only fair she do that if I'm going to be packing up the entire rest of the house.

Okay, that's it for today. Time to get myself to bed. Good night, friends!
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Gone Out)
Moving house is eating my brain and taking up all my CPU. With any luck I will be back and posting properly after I've moved. The date is set for November 4th. Yay! Also, ACK!

Quick update on the State of the Phnee:

  1. I am trying to pack like the wind, and mostly packing like molasses uphill in January. Still, things progress.

  2. Sergent finally got his ultrasound done (God, that shit is expensive!), and the good news is that he doesn't have cancer or Cushing's. The bad news is that the vet couldn't tell what the hell is going wrong with his liver, so we've got him on some expensive medication for a month to see if that helps his liver a little bit.

  3. Octavia (my new kitten) got spayed the day before yesterday and is doing fine, except for how much she hates the Cone of Shame. It bends her whiskers out of shape and so messes with her balance and makes her walk funny. Poor kitty. I'm hoping to take the cone off in a couple of days, as soon as her surgical incision has healed a bit more.

  4. I was planning to maybe throw a small going-away party, but I realise now that I can't pull it off in the time I have, given all the work I still have to do. Sorry, everyone. Either you'll have to come to my housewarming in Ottawa, or else we can have a get-together the next time I'm in Montreal. Deal?

  5. Packing. ALL THE PACKING.

  6. Moving is hard. And stressful. And expensive. Boy howdy, is it expensive.

  7. Also, because I am a masochist, I've decided to do NaNoWriMo this year.

mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Ending)
Two days ago marked the third anniversary of the day I moved into this house. Now, in a little over two weeks, I'll be moving into the little house I rented in Ottawa, right near work. Whatever little money I make off the sale of this house is going to go into a savings account, and I'll be adding to it for the next couple of years so that I can once again afford a down payment on a real, owned-by-me house.

I'm going to miss this house. It was (and is) my first, and I love it a lot. It's really big for just one person, with lots of natural light and beautiful hardwood floors. I love my neighbours and the quiet neighbourhood, and the dog park that's a two minute walk away. I'm going to miss the space, the quiet, the security of owning my own home. If I could just uproot the house (and maybe the neighbours, too) and take it with me, I would likely do that. Alas.

It's a move for the better. I'll be close to work, and won't exhaust myself commuting 600km a week or more. I'll save on gas by being able to walk to work most days. The rent on the house will be less than what I was paying on the mortgage and renting the little room in Ottawa, too. Not to mention that the room I was renting was in Nepea'n, which made for terribly long commutes through rush hour traffic in the evenings. All in all, I'll likely end up saving a couple hundred dollars a month, which does add up.

In the meantime, I'm kind of feeling the financial pinch. Don't get me wrong, I have good problems. I have problems other people would kill to have. Nonetheless, my finances this past year have been stretched incredibly thin, when in reality I shouldn't be having this much trouble making ends meet. So starting in December, when I'll be moved and settled, I'm going to start a regime of personal financial austerity that's going to make the Europoean fiscal practices of the past few years feel downright spendthrifty. :P

Okay, maybe not quite that bad. But I still have a good nine months of pretty stiff expenses ahead of me. The big expense after rent is the car payments, which will be over in May, and the daycare payments, which will end in June. After that, the money that was going to those two things is going to get funnelled directly into paying off the debt I accrued in the last year doing house renovations and travelling back and forth to a different city. My hope is to get almost all of the debt paid off within about 12 months, and still put money aside for a down payment on a house in about two years or so.

In the interim, I'll be using [livejournal.com profile] thinkingoutlaw's book to help me be thriftier in the kitchen. Have you all seen it yet? It's pretty great, and on Amazon for a very reasonable price! Even if you don't have an e-reader. Well worth the read, if you're looking to spend less on food yet still eat delicious, healthy things.

For now, I'm trying to focus on packing up my house. It's going very slowly so far, but I hope to pick up the pace in the coming days. Since the movers are paid by the hour, I'll need to make sure that I "waste" as little of their time as possible. The plan is to put as much of my furniture as possible together in one room (probably the space I use as a dining room), and to stack all the boxes together in the living room. I don't want the movers having to trot in and out of various rooms in the house if they don't have to. That way the only extra movements they'll have to make will be to fetch the appliances from the basement and the glass table I have on my balcony, which I don't think I'll be able to move on my own to the front of the house. I can at least move the chairs, though. The hope is that, if I consolidate everything, it won't take them three hours to pack up the house. I'm already looking at about five hours of travel time, so I need to keep the loading/unloading time to a minimum.

I also need to deal with a million details. Cancel the house insurance, acquire rental insurance, switch over the insurance on the car, change my address with Canada Post, cancel the utilities, all that jazz. So much to do, so little time.

I will come back with other updates later. There are lots of things happening, but they don't belong in this entry.
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (This version of the universe)
Day 61 of my resolution to post every day for a year. So far, so good. As long as no one expects actual content, I'm fine.

My work schedule is turning out a little better than I thought. I'm actually on day shift next week, and have the next two consecutive weekends off! *gasp* I don't actually remember the last time I had two weekends in a row to myself. I think it may have been in early June. Then I'm working evenings for five days, then nine days of night shift. Then I'm off for nearly two weeks! w00t!

This weekend, there will be cleaning. The place is... well, not a disaster, but certainly not tidy. Once it's clean(er), I will begin packing. I have boxes for that.

[livejournal.com profile] august_writing also starts tomorrow. Must remember to post challenges.

Pork recipe will go up when I get home: I don't have it with me.

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