mousme: Two open books, one lying on top of the other at an angle (Books)
I am at work all day for 12 hours, and I can do absolutely nothing about the packing or the bank or the sellers' inability to provide documentation in a timely manner. So, rather than angst about it, I am distracting myself during the down times at work by watching The Handmaid's Tale. 

I started watching it when it first aired in 2017, because I read the book well over 20 years ago (sometime in 2003, if memory serves), and while at the time I hadn't developed as many critical thinking skills and also lacked a lot of the historical knowledge of the real-life atrocities that informed Atwood when she wrote it, I still remember thinking how eerily plausible it all was. 

Anyway, I'm just starting Season 3, and I think the narrative is trying to make me feel sorry for Serena, because she's just as trapped as the other women, or something like that. Certainly June/Offred seems to vacillate between hatred and sympathy, including a heavy-handed moment of symbolism in which she literally extends a hand to pull Serena out of a house fire.
 
I'm having trouble agreeing with the narrative on this. Serena is not just getting her face eaten by leopards after voting them in. She literally helped to create the Leopards Eating People's Faces Party. She was one of the architects of the movement. She wanted this for everyone else, she actively campaigned for all women to be oppressed, and thought she would somehow be magically immune. We're given a bit of backstory on Serena, about her inability to have children (brought on because she was publicly campaigning to end women's rights), her work with her husband, and that's meant to humanize her. It does, to an extent, but my sympathy for her is still very limited.

I don't know that she's deserving of our sympathy for suffering the consequences of her actions. However, since the show appears to be setting her up for a redemption arc, I am intrigued to see how they are going to proceed with it. I think that a redemption arc could be really interesting if it's handled with delicacy and acknowledges all the harm she's caused. I don't think Serena can be redeemed without her deliberately undertaking to repair the harm she's caused, while being cognizant that there are some harms that simply cannot be repaired or ever properly atoned for. 

I also have lots of thoughts on June/Offred, and they basically boil down to her being a complicated, often unlikable character. She's a really interesting protagonist who makes shitty choices for often questionable reasons. She bucks against the system but still uses her limited privileges within it. She's quick to use other people for her own gains, doesn't necessarily think about the consequences of her actions for others, but she's also brave and willing to fight for other people when she sees the need for it. She can be empathetic and insightful when she's not being oblivious.
 
What I find most interesting about her is that her past is a cautionary tale. She exemplifies most of us (and by "us" I mean cis white women like me), living her little life and paying so little attention to what's going on around her that the new laws that take away her freedoms catch her unawares. (Why the show portrays Moira the same way perplexes me--perhaps there just weren't any WOC writers in the room.)
 
June lived blinded by privilege, including ignoring many of her 2nd generation feminist mother's warnings. Her mother is problematic in her own way (see: 2nd generation feminist), but makes many valid points about June ignoring or throwing away the work of previous women, and the inherent danger of that. Most of this is implied in their dialogue, rather than explicit, but it's still there. June leaves it all behind because she resents her mother for "abandoning" her in favour of her "work." To be fair, her mother is very much lacking in the nurturing department, so it's not unnatural for June to mistakenly equate being a feminist with being a bad mother. Where June goes wrong is never bothering once in her life to stop and question her deeply held beliefs (honestly, girl, therapy would have helped!). Her knee-jerk reaction to pull away from everything associated with her mother leads her to ignore what's going on in politics, and it costs her everything.
 
I'm not saying she could have stopped what happened, but she might have been less blindsided had she been paying even a little bit of attention. Of course, that would have made a much less dramatic narrative for the TV show. I suppose I am thinking about this more deeply right now than I ever would have in the past, because the parallels with what is happening today are stark and pretty obvious. This is not reality imitating fiction, of course. This is reality repeating reality that was portrayed in fiction to make a point. Margaret Atwood is a towering literary figure for a reason, and her depictions of dystopias are always chillingly on point. 

There are lots of themes and through lines that are worth exploring that I haven't fully thought through yet. There's the ritualized subjugation and infantilization of women, learned and acquired helplessness. There are themes of collaboration, what is means to be complicit in your own oppression (complying in advance, complying after the fact in order to survive, and exploiting the system for one's own gain on both small and large scales). There are themes of secrecy and lies, betrayal and loyalty, and what they all mean when living under an oppressive regime. There's also a lot to examine about the rules of society--who is allowed to break them and who isn't.

I do really like the writing when it comes to the characters and the plot taking place in the present time of the show. If I had unlimited time and brain bandwidth I'd want to do deeper dives into many of the characters, mostly the women but also some of the men: Serena, June/Offred, Emily/Ofglenn, Janine/Ofwarren, Fred Waterford, Joseph Lawrence, Aunt Lydia, and plenty of others.

Where I start having trouble is the world building. Atwood's novel is written in the epistolary style, strictly from the point of view of Offred, who is given no other name in the book, and encapsulates a very limited moment in time--the duration of her stay with the Waterfords (I don't remember if that's what they're called in the book). There is an metafictional epilogue which reveals the whole novel into a conceit that we are observing historical documents, a primary source no less, of a historical period that has come and gone. Gilead has been gone for 200 years, we are told, and very few records remain of its existence.

The show necessarily has to deviate from that after the first season, which follows the novel reasonably closely if my memory serves (which, honestly, it does not serve well these days, so I could be mistaken). The show therefore has to start doing its own world building, and honestly Gilead doesn't hold up particularly well under too close scrutiny. Here's a list of my issues, in no particular order:

- The economy. How the fuck does anything work if suddenly 55% of the working population doesn't work anymore? At higher levels, the loss of institutional knowledge would be pretty devastating, and at lower levels the loss of personnel would be even worse. Women have always been part of the workforce, even when inequality was at its worst. They've been labourers, factory workers, secretaries, assistants, and with increasing equality they have occupied every single rank and position in society. You can't declare all of that illegal overnight and not create a huge, chaotic vacuum. That's never addressed in the show.

- The rules governing women. We are apparently meant to believe that society transitioned pretty quickly and smoothly into one in which women are not allowed to work, not allowed to have their own money or bank accounts, aren't allowed to read, and are rounded up and put into re-education centres according to whichever "class" they've been assigned to (Wife, Handmaid, Martha, Aunt, Econowife). We see some protests initially which are violently put down (armed men gunning down protesters with automatic weapons), and then we just never see anything else from that time period. There is no mention of how these centres were initially set up, nor whose buy-in was required for that. The Aunts run the centres, we are given to understand, but who trained them in the first place? To get a system that regimented takes a lot of time and a lot of practice, and getting all of the centres across Gilead to adhere to the same SOPs must be an administrative nightmare.

- Societal structures and systems. At one point in Season 2 Commander Waterford yells at his wife to call 9-1-1, and that made me wonder who the fuck is still staffing all these institutions, and how they're still running apparently smoothly after removing half the workforce. See my first point about the economy. I worked as a dispatcher and telecomms operator for nearly two decades, and more than half my coworkers were women. We were already short-staffed and stretched thin, and finding qualified candidates to work was time-consuming and incredibly lengthy. Multiply this across every police force across a nation, every other 24-hour centre you don't even know exists. The people in charge of Gilead have completely upended the order of things, have done away with most modern technology, but we're meant to believe that 911 still works? It stretches credulity, at the very least.

- Then there's the costuming. It was established in the book and preserved in the show, and visually it's extremely striking. However it makes no sense from any perspective other than "it looks really cool." Coordinating identical outfits for literally millions of women across an entire country? Come on. If it were local to one city I might be more inclined to believe it, but nation-wide? No. For one thing, there would have to be an extremely long transition period while they get all of the outfits designed and then produced. Also, who is physically making these outfits? We're meant to believe that Gilead has protectionist policies, so they're not outsourcing to another country like China, but in the former USA/now Gilead, the vast, vast majority of sewists would have been women, who are now not allowed to work. Are you telling me that they somehow trained up a bunch of willing men to do "women's work?" Or are we meant to believe that people in each household are expected to sew their own outfits? If so, why do they all look mass produced and not like some terrible homemade hodge-podge?

- The costuming has a secondary problem, which is that it provides the women with too much anonymity. This is demonstrated over and over and over in the show. June/Offred routinely is able to run around and disguise her movements simply by donning the uniform of a different class of woman: either a Wife or a Martha. Each uniform grants her a layer of protection, either through privilege or invisibility. And as June herself says toward the end of Season 1: "They should have never given us uniforms if they didn't want us to be an army." I am reasonably sure that at least one or two of the organizers of the movement would have thought of this. 

- Last but not least, a pet peeve of mine: everyone is constantly miserable. The thing is, this is absolutely contrary to human nature. Yes, under oppressive regimes there is always an undercurrent of fear and constant paranoia about who might be about to report you to the State. But humans aren't built to be somber 24/7: they will take every opportunity for celebrations, small and large. They make food and they hang out over cups of tea or get together for illicit parties. There is so little joy in The Handmaid's Tale, and the vast majority of group encounters are weirdly manufactured and ritualized. Like, where is the secret underground dance party like in Titanic? Why doesn't Offred ever sit and gossip over a cup of tea with Rita after so many months of living under the same roof, even if it's surface-level nonsense? 

 

:::ETA:::

I am back with more thoughts that I forgot about.

- What about the future? Particularly the future Handmaids. In the present, Handmaids are picked specifically because they successfully bore a living child in the past. What is the plan for the next generation of women? There's no telling which little girl will be able to bear children successfully, so what is the plan for them? Only two classes of women can potentially have children (unless you count some of the Jezebels), the Handmaids and the Econowives, should the latter be lucky enough to be fertile, and the Handmaids' babies are of course given to the Wives. Who in the next generation will be picked to be a Wife, a Handmaid, or a Martha? Or any class of woman, for that matter? The whole system falls apart within a generation, because what Wife would allow her daughter to become a Handmaid? Even a Martha would be an unthinkable fall in station. So that leaves only the children of the Econowives who'd have to be divvied up, and that seems unsustainable to me.
 

Anyway, thank you for putting up with all my Handmaid's Tale thinky thoughts. Maybe one day I'll get back to the other characters I mentioned, or some of the more interesting themes. We shall see.

Catch you on the flip side, friends!

mousme: The nib of a fountain pen resting on a paper with a dotted line, captioned Write (Write)
 Work has been kind of wild tonight. I'm working the AVSEC desk and I've had weird breaches and a case of arson and one airport employee meeting a Tindr date next to one of the departure gates. I'd blame the full moon, except that that was several days ago (and that was also a bit of a wild weekend!). I guess someone just spiked the water with something tonight.

I decided to take a relaxing break from watching Law & Order: SVU by watching The Purge movies. I am partway through the second one. I watched them once before, many years ago (the most recent one is from 2016), and I'd forgotten how much the premise makes so very little sense. I think it's because whoever conceptualized and wrote it didn't really think it all the way through. I have been trying to figure out how it could work, and honestly it just doesn't. The writer put a lot of emphasis on the fact that every crime is allowed during this 12-hour period, including murder, as if murder and violence is what most people aspire to. The Purge announcement over TV/radio/etc. also makes a big deal out of how murder is allowed, and therein lies the central weakness of the narrative.

The idea, of course, is that the poor and marginalized, the "undesirables" will either kill each other off, or be killed off by wealthier people with better access to weapons and hired mercenaries or whatever. And yeah, sure, there might be some of that in reality, but I don't think it holds true of most marginalized people. If anything, they are the ones most likely to engage in mutual aid and take part in a more unofficial economy. Also, while I'm sure there are wealthy people who'd take advantage of things, I rather think they'd be too concerned about preserving their property to really get into that much trouble themselves.

Also, straight-up murder is just so unimaginative, and humanity can get super creative with their crimes. Why go outside and run the risk of physical injury when you can hack into a bank, or government systems? You could transfer a bunch of money into your accounts, or cancel your student loans (or everyone's student loans!) Why wouldn't every organized crime group arrange to move vast amounts of drugs during that night with no repercussions?

What would stop the powerful people at the helm of institutions from committing collapse-inducing crimes? A bank CEO just cleaning out his entire bank, or a government official selling every single national security secret available to foreign powers. It's not treason during Purge Night! If even a few dozen people committed large-scale crimes, it could absolutely collapse the nation in short order. 

And then there's the issue of the emergency services. According to the premise, they are unavailable during the twelve hours of Purge Night, which makes a certain amount of sense: people would target any first responders getting in the way of their crimes. If you're murdering someone, you want them dead. That all holds up until you get to the fire department. The movies don't (to my knowledge, I could be misremembering) show any kind of arson, and you cannot convince me that there wouldn't be pyromaniacs and overexcited teenagers setting fire to shit all over the place. You know what fire does? It spreads. So why aren't entire neighbourhoods wiped out by fire on Purge Night, since there are no firefighters to keep the blazes under control?

Another thing that bugs me about the movies is that they focus exclusively on urban settings. It definitely works better for the plot, but a lot of the USA is either rural or at least from small towns. Does the Purge even happen there? Would people attack farms? You could set fire to all of the USA's food supply and, again, cause some pretty significant societal damage.

In short, the writer did not think this through, and just created a hyper-violent but ultimately unimaginative premise that doesn't really prompt the audience to think about the broader societal issues underpinning the story. It just boils down to "murder and violence bad," as if we didn't know that already.

Okay, thank you for bearing with my rambling thoughts about The Purge franchise. ;) Catch you on the flip side, friends!
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Default)

I am not particularly given to hero-worship, luckily for me, but there has been more than one artist whose work I admired a lot in the past who turned out to be a pretty terrible person later on. Orson Scott Card, J. K. Rowling, and Joss Whedon spring to mind, along with any number of others.


An article came out in Vulture either late yesterday or early today about the accusations of sexual assault against Neil Gaiman. I'm going to put the rest of this post behind a cut just in case, because the article itself gets into some gruesome subject matter, but for what it's worth I don't plan on providing any graphic details or anything like that.


Read more... )
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (CritRole)
I got home yesterday and, knowing Critical Role was starting around 22:00 (it airs at 19:00 Pacific), I decided a nap was in order. Due to landlady shenanigans and other, less vital things, I didn't get enough sleep the previous two nights, and Critical Role often keeps me up well past 1:00. So I curled up for a nap, and slept right up until 21:50. Not quite my intent, but I definitely needed the sleep, and then CritRole ended up lasting until nearly 3:00, so it worked out for the best.

It also means I didn't write the promised post, but never fear, here it is now!

Okay, again, for the new people, there is something you should know about me:


Hi, my name is Phnee*, and I am a giant geek. :)
A brief history of Phnee and roleplaying )
Excited rambling about Critical Role behind the cut )


*"Phnee" is the nickname given to me by [livejournal.com profile] fearsclave many years ago, since I dislike having my real name, "Daphne," shortened to "Daph." So picking the last syllable of my name instead seemed like a good compromise.

mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Sisyphus)
Three entries in a week! This one is going to be short, but since tonight is Critical Role night, I don't feel bad about it, because I plan to come back with a longer post yelling at all of you about how AWESOME Critical Role is. No, I mean it, there will be yelling/capslocking, and general squeeing. You have been warned!

For those of you who are new to these parts, I must explain that, as much as I would like it to be otherwise, I basically have no chill. So whenever I come across something new that I like, I tend to throw myself into it unreservedly, and yell about it excitedly for quite a long time. (I should probably tag for that. LJ tags, so useful.) It will be easier to post about from home (I am on the stand-alone internet station at work), since I actually went out of my way to find fun gifs of the show, which I never do. You know I have to feel strongly about something if I did that. ;)


Anyway, I have to leave you hanging, because today is shaping up to be a busy day at work. I've been training a newbie since March, and we have another newbie coming in today. I told my boss last week that I couldn't train two newbies at once (my current newbie is... having trouble learning the ropes, alas, and needs a lot of supervision), and he agreed. So naturally yesterday he introduced me to the latest newbie and then was, like, "Okay, I have to go to a meeting, so I'm leaving him in your hands!"

ARGH.

I feel like I should have seen this coming. The newest guy was only supposed to start next week, but here he was, a full week early, being dumped in my lap. I had nothing ready for training purposes, and my other newbie made a pretty big mistake (while I was distracted) which took a long time to fix, and I'm pretty sure I didn't keep all my plates spinning properly yesterday. We'll find out today how much broken crockery I'll need to pick up, I guess. I'm still going to be training both of them today, but at least this time I've had a chance to prepare some material the newest guy can work on while I'm training the other girl.

Time to start pushing that boulder back up the hill. Tonight, a more joyous post about Critical Role!
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Canadian Borg)
Well, Canada, you didn't exactly vote for change, but at least you didn't vote for the status quo. Many of my non-Canadian friends have congratulated me on having a Disney prince as a Prime Minister, which I think is hilarious. I have my hopes set to "cautious optimism," since the Liberals are basically a centre-right party who are slightly to the left of the Conservatives, so I don't expect any kind of radical change.

I just spent the last four days at a fan-centric convention (no stars, no special guests, just fangirls fangirling about what we love), and it was wonderful but totally exhausting. I spent 12 hours driving yesterday (8 with friends, 4 by myself), and I am paying for it today in very sore muscles and stiff tendons. I'm not looking forward to going to the gym in a little while. It was fantastic to get away and hang out with like-minded people for a few days, though. I have been very spoiled this year in terms of travel, I must say.

I have become a Busy Person, and I don't like it. I'm not sure how to fix that, because I genuinely enjoy my extracurricular activities, and all my errands need to be run, but I still need to fix it because I have spent nearly two months without any alone time. As an introvert, this is making me a little crazy. It's not like I have all that many extracurriculars, either: I have the soup kitchen on Mondays, and Meeting for Worship on Sundays, and that's pretty much the only regularly scheduled stuff I have. It's not like I can suddenly stop grocery shopping or going to doctor's appointments. What has really started eating into my time is my return to my local gym, which, while good for me, doesn't (to me) count as down time. I am working with one of the trainers, and she only ever seems available in the middle of the day, which tends to put a crimp in any other plans I'd want to make otherwise. Anyway, I'll have to give it some thought, and see what I can do. I don't enjoy worshipping at the altar of busyness. It's a social sickness that needs to be eradicated.

The adoption process is going along at a moderate clip so far. I finished my PRIDE training a couple of weeks ago, and had my first home visit around the same time. It was actually a lot less invasive than I had anticipated. I thought for sure that my assessor would poke into every nook and cranny in my home, and so I dutifully tidied the whole house so that it would be as "child-safe" as possible, but she barely glanced into each every room, and pointed out a couple of things I'd need to do to conform to safety standards. So far, so good. My next "home" visit is actually an interview at the Ottawa CAS, and takes place on Thursday. During this bit we're apparently going to detail my own personal history from Day 0 all the way to today. Holy hell, Batman. It will be interesting, to say the very least. I understand why we have to do it, but I think I should invest in some lozenges. I foresee a lot of talking. I still have two classes to take: one on Openness in Adoption, and the other on Fetal Alcohol Spectrum Disorder. After that, if I'm approved, it's all a waiting game. CAS has a child-centric approach, so what they do is look at the current children in care and determine which families would be a good match for them. So even if there are lots of children in care, that doesn't mean that I would be the right parent for them. Adopting could take a few weeks, or it could take a few years.

Tomorrow I'll be interviewing for a potential promotion at work. The other candidates are all very strong, and all of them have interviewed before (I have not), so I'm not holding out much hope that I'll get the position. That being said, I do interview very well, so I refuse to despair, either. I will prepare as best I can, and that will have to suffice. The promotion would be nice, though, as it comes with a pay increase, too. I'm not hurting for money, but I'm trying to get rid of some consumer debt, and a bit of extra income would go a long way to fixing that.

I've also got a doctor's appointment on Thursday. Partly it's to get a form filled out for Ottawa CAS, so that they can make sure I'm not about to keel over and leave any prospective children orphaned, and partly I want to get my shoulder checked, as I seem to have mysteriously injured it, and it's not getting any better after several weeks.

So there you have it. My life isn't very exciting, but I thought I would update anyway. How is everyone else? How's kicks?
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Huh?)
So [livejournal.com profile] sorcerer asked me to talk about my adventures in fandom. How it came to be, and all that.

It's not that interesting a story, alas. Up until 2009, fandom had always been this thing I knew about but never participated in. I knew it was out there, and I had lots of friends in various fandoms. I heard all the horror stories of ship wars and flame wars and plagiarism and scandal, and discreetly patted myself on the back for never getting involved in that sort of craziness.

Fandom was cray, y'all.

The story of my descent into fandom )

Conclusion? The SPN fandom is cray, y'all. But it's been a wild ride.

The best part of being in the fandom? It let me reconnect with [livejournal.com profile] pdaughter, with whom I then had a standing date every week to watch SPN at her place. We started hanging out on non-SPN days too, then combining grocery shopping and other regular activities, and soon I found there were very few people with whom I wanted to spend time rather than her. And the rest, as they say, is history. <3
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Random Sentences)
... when you essentially have nothing to say. I'd love to be one of those bloggers who can write long and intelligent essays on whatever subject pops into their minds, but I'm not, so there seems little point in wishing it were otherwise.

The problem is that I don't lead an exciting enough life to warrant updating every day. Since the last time I updated, for instance, all I did was work (and even if that was interesting, which it's not, I can't talk about it anyway), then sleep, then get up and shower and pack my bags.

Exciting, am I right?

It's easier on days when I'm home. On those days other things happen, Bean does funny stuff (I really need to start noting these things, so I can have them for posterity), we go out and run errands and go to birthday parties and generally lead a more adventurous existence.

I don't know. For people still reading this (and I know there's a handful), is there anything in particular you'd like me to talk about? Maybe I just need prompting, a little bit like fanfiction. Anyone? Bueller?

Anyway, it's time for me to finish packing in order to head back to Montreal. I shall conclude with another fannish sentiment: I am developing a wholly inappropriate crush on Peter Capaldi. I hope that his Doctor Who commitments won't keep him away from The Musketeers, which is proving highly enjoyable so far. Is it me, or are English-speakers WAY more obsessed with Dumas' story than the French? It's perplexing.
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (God sent me)
I try to keep my screechy fangirling to Twitter and my other fandom spaces, but I am unreasonably excited about Captain America: The Winter Soldier.

No one who knows me will be surprised that I am all about the Lawful Good character in the Avengers, am I right? Right. I also may have an unhealthy thing for Black Widow (bad-ass Russian ladies? Yes, please. It's why I liked Ivanova so much in Babylon 5.), and I am super excited about the Winter Soldier storyline and to see The Falcon in action.

*bounces madly*

So, yes. I shall scrounge up money from somewhere to go see this movie, I don't care what it takes. I've been going to matinees anyway lately, because the timing is easier (evening movies are a no-go, because it means finding a babysitter for Bean AND paying a gazillion dollars per ticket).

I swear I had other, more profound things I was going to write about, but right now my entire brain has been replaced with squee and Cap feels. /o\

Trailer under the cut )

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