Starting from scratch

[mousme]

:::More writing stuff. You've been warned.:::



I'd forgotten just how much the writing muscle can atrophy in such a short time. Everything is frustrating me today. Nothing is coming out the way I want it to: it's all either contrived or clumsy or just wrong. Gah! It honestly feels as though I've never written a word in my life, that I'm starting completely from scratch.

I have learned my lesson, however, and shall persevere. Eventually the muscle will come back, and it won't feel like trying to get blood from a stone. I have to transcribe the last instalment of BTP, then try to write a second one. Eventually the flow will come back, right? Right.

At least I got rid of those godawful 3,000-odd words that were holding me back in CdZ. I didn't want to delete them ('Cause, y'know, WORDCOUNT!), but they were preventing me from doing anything useful with the novel. Like, say, keep writing it. I still am not entirely comfortable with how the ending is working out, but at least I'm getting toward the end.

I also want to get back to A Lamentation of Swans, which has been on hold since August. I really, really like that story. Better than CdZ, if I can be perfectly honest. It's a lot more work to write it, though, and it's not anywhere near done, though, so I'm trying to focus on what I can get finished, at least for now.

Oh, did I mention the crushing guilt of not having my serials up on time?

Just, argh.

Okay, back to writing.

Comments

[rosy1.livejournal.com]

Don't think...just write.

I always find the best way is to just slog through and then I go back and say "this is crap!", make it better and proceed with a new purpose.

[mousme.livejournal.com]

That's what I've been doing for the past two days or so. Just writing and letting the chips fall where they may. It might be crap now, but at least it's crap I've written, as opposed to brilliant stuff that's just sitting in my head. :P

[owldaughter.livejournal.com]

That's really important. Sitting and thinking until it's right is often fine for the basic story, but not for the actual execution of it.

[sorceror.livejournal.com]

Hee! B5 icon. ^_^

[Though I thought it was spelled differently -- J'Quan, or something...]

[baronscartop.livejournal.com]

I hear ya, sister.

The atrophy sensation? My entire November.

The good news is you don't have to rush.

Best of.

t!

[mousme.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I have to be careful, though, because often enough, with me, "not rushing" very quickly turns into "not writing at all."

[owldaughter.livejournal.com]

I feel like that every Monday and Wednesday. I long for the feeling of momentum again.

[toughlovemuse.livejournal.com]

Congratulations! I'm glad to see you writing again!