More television woes...

So, as it turns out, not only is every single season finale of Stargate up until Season 5 a cliffhanger, according to joane, but I went online to look up Farscape to at least get a synopsis of what happens in that episode I'm going to miss.

Turns out it's part of ANOTHER three-or-four episode story arc that —wait for — spans from Season 2 into Season 3.

Yes, folks, Farscape has joined the ranks of those shows that do cliffhanger season finales.

*beats head against wall*

It's a good thing I don't actually get the Space channel. Otherwise this might actually be a big problem for me. ;)

Here are the good things about not having money:

1- I can't afford cable, and thus don't get the Space channel. Thus, I don't have the frustration of cliffhanger endings to Stargate and Farscape.

2- I can't afford to buy Farscape on DVD as it comes out. I think only Season 1 is out right now. Thus, once again, I am spared the evilness of cliffhangers.

No, really. You have no idea how much this gets on my nerves. I realise that this is probably just a really huge blinking pink neon sign that says PHNEE NEEDS A LIFE, but I hate not knowing how television shows end. Not the whole show, but individual episodes. Yes, I like to know how a series works out in the end, but somehow the bigger picture doesn't have the same nagging, worrying effect on me that not completing a single story does.

Anyway, I found my synopsis, and luckily for me Farscape is well into Season 4, so I was able to find out more or less how the arc resolves itself.

I would like to clarify, however, that this does not mean that I welcome spoilers about television shows. Sometimes I want them, but that's rare. I like to be surprised, but I generally froth at the mouth when I have to wait six months for the surprise (may to october). Or, worse, have the series cancelled and never know what the surprise is.

If I were reasonably certain that I would be able, within a short span of time, to see the aforementioned episodes of Farscape in order, then I probably wouldn't have sought out a synopsis on the web. But, since that's unlikely, I had to make do with the next best thing.

So what do you do...

When your parents solicitously ask you how you're feeling? They can tell you're depressed, but they don't really want to know.

I hate playing this game. It's the "you-never-tell-me-anything-but-whenever-you-say-something-I-stop-listening" game.

If I tell them I'm depressed, they don't want to hear it. It's not that they're not concerned, and it's not that they don't love me. They just find it too painful to listen.

So I don't tell them.

But I'm not especially good at hiding things, so they can tell that I'm not telling them something, so they get their feelings all hurt because I'm not confiding in them.

*kicks wall*

Frikking Catch-22.

I really wish these meds would work the other way, too. They keep me from being hypomanic, but they don't seem to be able to prevent the depression from creeping back every now and again.

Why is mania so much easier to prevent? It's so much more fun than the depression. I could use some abnormally high spirits right about now...

Il pleut doucement sur la ville...

Il pleure dans mon cœur
Comme il pleut sur la ville;
Quelle est cette langueur
Qui pénètre mon cœur?

O bruit doux de la pluie
Pa terre et sur les toits!
Pour un cœur qui s'ennuie
O le chant de la pluie!

Il pleure sans raison
Dans ce cœur qui s'écœure.
Quoi! Nulle trahison?...
Ce deuil est sans raison.

C'est bien la pire peine
De ne savoir pourquoi
Sans amour et sans haine
Mon cœur a tant de peine.

Paul Verlaine