Stick a fork in me, I'm done

[mousme]

The week is over, I hope. The car has been delivered to the car vet, and things at work are more or less under control, even if they're not great.

I ended up going to bed late yesterday just out of sheer inertia. I didn't play Stardew Valley, but I just didn't pry myself out of my chair in time to go upstairs and to bed at a reasonable hour. Oops.

I had a nice chat with my therapist today: she let me rant about this clusterbang of a week, and we focused on how I can try to "allow" myself to take proper breaks during the day without constantly being eaten alive by guilt and the feeling that I *should* be productive at all times, or something. She also gave me some ideas for better handling delegating tasks to others. I am getting better at delegating, but I am terrible at keeping track of the things I've delegated, which doesn't help much.

So I have some homework to try out for the next two weeks, to see if it helps, and to see what needs tweaking. 

In the meantime, I am going to finish my dinner and head to bed. No Stardew Valley for me tonight, but I will likely treat myself to a few hours tomorrow.

Comments

[sirena73]

And once again, are you me? In the two years I've been at my job, I've left my desk to actually take a lunch maybe four times; I eat standing up at my desk while working the whole time. I don't take any breaks other than to go to the bathroom. I live in one of the most beautiful places in my state (if not the country) and do I go for a fifteen minute walk in the redwood forest that's literally steps from my office building to decompress? No, I do not, because the guilt is way too much. Hell, I feel guilty on my days off when I choose to read or color or something instead of doing housework.

We're sick, sick people LOL I'm interested to hear how your "homework" goes.

[mousme.livejournal.com]

I will let you know!

My homework is to give myself new cues for taking breaks other than "OH GOD I'M OVERWHELMED I SHOULD REALLY TAKE 10 MINUTES TO DECOMPRESS." [5 minutes later] "I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY THIS BREAK IS NOT HELPING TO DECOMPRESS."