Corner of Bourbon & Division

I'm awake! Pay no attention to the title of this post... ;)

I'm leaving in 30 minutes or so for a breakfast at the local diner (I have no milk, no cream, no butter, and no bread, all of which makes breakfast at Casa Phnee problematic), after which I'll be heading out to Meeting.

Alex hasn't contacted me yet about coffee, but he suggested 15:00, so I wrote him a quick note to tell him I'll be at the AMC Forum coffee shop at that time. If he shows, so much the better. If not, well, there's always Tuesday or even Friday if he's still in town.

I'm oddly reluctant to leave the house today. I think I've become far too used to being by myself and doing nothing but work and sleep. I spent most of the night awake, but I did catch a few hours' sleep, and after nearly 13 hours of sleep yesterday, I'm feeling pretty rested. With any luck I'll be able to get to bed at a decent hour tonight, thus resetting my sleep schedule properly. I need to pull myself together and be less of a hermit.

So I definitely need to get out there, see some people, and do some dearly-needed grocery shopping. I have things in the fridge that will go bad unless I cook them, and I'm missing some key ingredients. I also need to do some tidying, as I think I mentioned before. tcaptain is coming tomorrow for a writing jam, and I both want to have the place presentable as well as have something edible around here.

For some reason, these lyrics have been running through my head lately:

"And if you say this life ain't good enough
I would give my world to lift you up
I could change my life to better suit your mood..."

I'm not sure why they've been there, but sometimes I get earwormed on songs that feel relevant to me. Sometimes, of course, it's totally random. Like the time I had "Camptown Races" stuck in my head for three weeks straight and I thought I would lose my mind. ;) ("Oh the Camptown ladies sing this song, doo-dah, doo-dah!" AUGH!) This one feels relevant, though. I haven't figured out why. I'm sure it'll come to me.

Okay, fuck this.

There is no stress in my life right now that is not entirely of my own making.

So I don't get to whine about it. My choices brought me here, and now I get to suck it up and deal. I'll be over there in that corner, consciously choosing not to make myself crazy, if you need me.



( Bad Day (yes, it's song lyrics) )

Okay, this is a lyrics post. Move along. I was just thinking of a friend who doesn't talk to me anymore (for reasons which I still don't fully understand), and I was reminded of this. Eminem, when not writing racist and misogynistic lyrics, actually comes up with some damned good stuff.

( How Come )