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mousmeYou know what? I would like if, for once, just once, life were easy.
Just maybe for a couple of weeks. Hell, I'd settle for a few days.
I would really like to not worry about money. I would like to not be affected by the weather. I would like to have a job land in my lap.I would like to have someone be in love with me. I would like to not have to take twelve pills a day. I would like the cats to feed themselves, the apartment to clean itself, the dishes to be magically done.
I would like to not have to work at holding myself together. To not have to pay attention to everything I do and say in case I accidentally kick someone else in the feelings because I'm feeling too crappy to notice what comes out of my mouth. I don't dare let myself be around people for more than a couple of hours when I'm like this, because I just don't trust myself to be civilized, and yet I can't afford to stay by myself all the time either.
*kicks the wall*
All right. Whingeing over. Feel free to go back to your lives now.
Just maybe for a couple of weeks. Hell, I'd settle for a few days.
I would really like to not worry about money. I would like to not be affected by the weather. I would like to have a job land in my lap.
I would like to not have to work at holding myself together. To not have to pay attention to everything I do and say in case I accidentally kick someone else in the feelings because I'm feeling too crappy to notice what comes out of my mouth. I don't dare let myself be around people for more than a couple of hours when I'm like this, because I just don't trust myself to be civilized, and yet I can't afford to stay by myself all the time either.
*kicks the wall*
All right. Whingeing over. Feel free to go back to your lives now.
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Oh no---not you too?!
Date: 2006-11-12 05:03 pm (UTC)I want to put on my most comfortable pj's, curl myslef up in bed, and sleep straight through until spring.
I wish that everyone else's bad moods comforted me, either in a supportive "I'm not alone" sense, or---yes, sorry---even a schadenfreude sense But they only make me feel more hopeless.
How about that old misery loves company thing? Huh? HUH?! Does that work for anybody?
Didn't think so. Oh well.
xox