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mousmeClearly, I was hallucinating.
Now, I haven't gone back and read the 1000+ entries I've made in this LJ, but I read a few of them not too long ago, and lo and behold, they were kind of empty of any meaningful content.
Hmm...
I wonder if I've always been this vapid, or if it's something recent. I had a mini-epiphany yesterday, speaking of being vapid, as I was talking to Miranda: I had done something flaky (I think it might have been arriving a whole hour early for Game Night, but by then it might have been something else), and protested, as usual, that "I'm not usually this flaky!"
Then the as usual part of that sentence struck me. I say that a lot. I can't believe it's taken me this long to figure out that I'm *shudder* a flake. I'm everything I've always despised: I don't keep track of appointments, or meeting times, or anything at all, with any degree of accuracy. I misplace pieces of paper, I misunderstand times and get dates mixed up. I forget important things with alarming regularity.
I did it again today: I was convinced that it was Wednesday, and thus practically completely missed lunch with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
firewillow. I managed to catch her at the tail-end of lunch, so we had about a half hour or so worth of conversation time.
I really find it highly distressing that I'm so flaky, and that I've been oblivious to this aspect of my personality for so long. In fact, I've been in denial. "I'm not usually this flaky!" is like a mantra, now that I look back on it. In fact, I am usually that flaky! I'm amazed that more of my friends haven't got fed up with me and dumped my flaky ass the way I deserve.
I don't march to the beat of a different drummer, my drummer is on sabbatical or something. O_O
This is bad. This is very bad. I don't know how to fix this, either. I have an appointment book, but lately it's been kind of neglected. I think I'll give it another try to see if I can make myself less flaky.
Now, I haven't gone back and read the 1000+ entries I've made in this LJ, but I read a few of them not too long ago, and lo and behold, they were kind of empty of any meaningful content.
Hmm...
I wonder if I've always been this vapid, or if it's something recent. I had a mini-epiphany yesterday, speaking of being vapid, as I was talking to Miranda: I had done something flaky (I think it might have been arriving a whole hour early for Game Night, but by then it might have been something else), and protested, as usual, that "I'm not usually this flaky!"
Then the as usual part of that sentence struck me. I say that a lot. I can't believe it's taken me this long to figure out that I'm *shudder* a flake. I'm everything I've always despised: I don't keep track of appointments, or meeting times, or anything at all, with any degree of accuracy. I misplace pieces of paper, I misunderstand times and get dates mixed up. I forget important things with alarming regularity.
I did it again today: I was convinced that it was Wednesday, and thus practically completely missed lunch with
firewillow. I managed to catch her at the tail-end of lunch, so we had about a half hour or so worth of conversation time.I really find it highly distressing that I'm so flaky, and that I've been oblivious to this aspect of my personality for so long. In fact, I've been in denial. "I'm not usually this flaky!" is like a mantra, now that I look back on it. In fact, I am usually that flaky! I'm amazed that more of my friends haven't got fed up with me and dumped my flaky ass the way I deserve.
I don't march to the beat of a different drummer, my drummer is on sabbatical or something. O_O
This is bad. This is very bad. I don't know how to fix this, either. I have an appointment book, but lately it's been kind of neglected. I think I'll give it another try to see if I can make myself less flaky.
