Or only want to walk with me a while across the sand

[mousme]

I don't feel like moving anymore.

There are so many things I should be doing, and all I want to do right now is curl into a ball under my bed covers and not face the world.

I'm not depressed, I don't think. (Hmm, I should really update my mood chart —haven't been doing that since my moods evened out) I'm tired and kind of zoned out (thank you, Seroquel), and I went to bed too late last night (past 11:00) which is all contributing to Phnee being very very lethargic today.

Bah.

I am going to wash my hair in a few minutes.

My living room is depressing me. Not in an actual Depression kind of way, but it's by far the messiest and most disorganised part of my apartment, but also at the bottom of my list in terms of priorities. First I want to get my bedroom livable, then the kitchen, then the bathroom, and then the living room. But right now the living room is depressing me the most.

So I don't know whether I shouldn't actually tackle it first, just because it's the room that's depressing me the most. It's also the room in which I spend the most time. However, the reason I spend the most time in it is because the other rooms are messy and uninviting. If I don't clean them now, I won't clean them at all and the cycle will continue. *grumble* Talk about a Catch-22.

I tried reading that book, incidentally, and I never could get into it. I just never found it that good. Maybe I'll give it another shot someday. I'm reading two more books right now: Love's Executioner by Irvin Yalom and Palace Walk by Naguib Mahfouz (I hope I spelled that right). They're both radically different (one is psychological case studies and the other is the first in a trilogy about an egyptian family).

At least I'm getting a fair bit of reading done so far this year. I was appalled at how few books I read last year. I used to read so much when I was younger, and now I'm lucky if I read one book a week. At least I averaged more than a book a week last year, but that was more out of luck than anything else (I fell on a fantasy series I really liked that happened to have a lot of books already published).

Can we tell I'm procrastinating? All righty, I'm off to put a load of laundry in. It's only socks, but given that I'm running out of clean socks, that's a good thing. :)

Comments

[angelovernh.livejournal.com]

If the LR is the space most depressing you and you're spending a lot of time there, clean that first. Then you may be less depressed and might get into the other areas. A book a week is a LOT more than most people read, btw.

[mousme.livejournal.com]

I think I may end up doing the LR first, or at least doing a chunk of the clutter in there anyway. Just to make myself feel better.

I just miss my reading. I used to read *constantly*. Five, six books a week. I used to read like some people breathe. I really, really miss it. I feel unbalanced when I don't read. When my moods really went to hell in the last few years, I lost the concentration I needed to read the way I used to, and that frustrated me and made my moods get even more whacked out.

*shrug*

Here's hoping I can get back to what I want to do. :)