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[mousme]

I think the new meds made me go insane. ^^;

No, seriously. They were supposed to bring me down off my little manic high from two weeks ago, and I think they worked a little too well. Three days after I started taking the Clonazepam I was practically suicidal. I also felt like a complete zombie, as though I were wrapped in cotton wool. Fuzzy-headed and generally "blah" if you'll forgive the technical term. This lasted until yesterday.

Yesterday was the first day I was supposed to not take the Clonazepam, because I'm meant to alternate days until next Tuesday when I see the meds doc again.

Today, not depressed. Hypomanic, yes, possibly even just hyperthymic, because I'm not spazzing all over the place.

Also, the little meltdown I had on Saturday was a wee bit out of character, even for me. I don't generally have complete hysterical fits for little or no reason. It's not like my father hasn't got on my case about my finances before, and while I didn't take it well then, it didn't turn me into a sobbing, quivering, incoherent wreck either. :P

So, yeah. Seven days on new meds => Phnee goes crazier than usual
One day off new meds => Phnee returns to her usual level of crazy

Houston, we have a problem. :P

I think I'm going to go research the Clonazepam some more. Something that striped said about her new med, Alprazolam struck a chord, since it's (I think) very similar to Clonazepam (they even sound alike! ^_-) Actually, Alprazolam is also called Xanax in the US, and my own meds doc told me my meds were in the same family (along with Valium). See, striped said that Alprazolam is not generally prescribed for depression because it can sometimes cause depression-like symptoms. So I wonder if Clonazepam might not have had the same effect on me.

I know that generally speaking I don't cycle as fast as that. I know that I was extremely depressed last night, and today there isn't a freaking trace of the depression. Not. A. Trace. Generally speaking, it takes me several days to "warm up" to being really depressed or hypomanic. It doesn't happen overnight. There's a transition period, so to speak, of at least two to three days, if not more.

So, yeah. Not Normal.™

In case you were wondering, I have already sent my meds doc an email with my latest "findings." If he thinks it's urgent enough to see me before next Tuesday, he'll schedule an appointment. :)

Comments

[vureoelt.livejournal.com]

Ugh. Seems like you have a choice of extremes here. That's not really a solution. :(

[striped.livejournal.com]

Yup, Alprazolam is a benzodiazepine, just like Clonazepam. So they're quite closely related, at least chemically.

For the record, I took my first Alprazolam (heck, so many difficult words! Why can't they give shorter names to drugs?) today, and it really made me feel better. It considerably lessened my self-destructive feelings, while all the Oxazepam (which is also a benzodiazepine, and also a very long word) did was make me a bit more relaxed. So, um, it might be that you might want to suggest your doctor to prescribe you a different kind of benzo, although this here site says that Clonazepam might cause feelings of depression, too.

Gotta love psychiatric meds that cause mental health problems.

[mousme.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the link. :)

Gotta love psychiatric meds that cause mental health problems.

Indeed. The irony has not escaped my notice. ^_-