This is me not caring...

[mousme]

I have ceased to care about my work. Anyone who knows me at all will know that this is a BAD SIGN.

This is what happened shortly before I had a complete nervous breakdown at university. I simply stopped caring enough to try.

Right now, I don't care if they fire me. I'm just going through the motions.

I know a lot of you think that I'm being a "job snob" about this, that I think I'm too good for this work or what have you, but I'd like to flatter myself that by thinking that it's not that.

No, really.

I mean, how many of you would stick with a job that you find so stressful you're literally sick to your stomach between two and four times a week? Getting up in the morning and having my first reflex be to throw up, or having to put myself on "not ready" at work to puke into my trash can because I'm so stressed is not my idea of a good time.

This is what made me throw up blood in January. I'm not sure it was the stupid Norwalk virus, since the doctors said I had none of the right symptoms.

Since I've continued to be sick on and off since then (with general improvement since I've been taking my iron pills), I'm thinking it might be just the job that's wrecking my health.

I'm applying to Chapters on Wednesday. It may be minimum wage, but at least I won't be on the phone all day long, and there'll be books involved.

I'm definitely also cancelling my cell phone account when I leave Bell Mobility. I don't use the cell phone enough to justify having one, unless I switch to prepaid, and that's kind of silly.

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Awww...honey.....

[delicatesilence.livejournal.com]

We'll save you.....


If you can hold out at BM for about 4-5 months, we will come and help......You'll only need a part time carefree job...


I'm sorry you're having a sucky day...you should have just stayed here!!!! :(

I'll give you a call tonight if you're home......

Keep smiling, sugar, it's not a foreverjob.

*Love*
Abi

Re: Awww...honey.....

[mousme.livejournal.com]

I know.

I'm going to switch jobs, though. It'll pay less, but I'll keep my sanity (and my stomach lining!).

*huggles*

*snuggles up in your lap*

Re: Awww...honey.....

[wolfieboy.livejournal.com]

Keeping the stomach lining is a good thing. I had to do something similar in my early twenties and it sucked. Good luck...

[pennywhistle.livejournal.com]

That's exactly how I felt when I worked at the Call Center for Avon. I just couldn't take any more calls, I was sick to my stomach every day. I eventually ended up in the hospital. Do something that makes you happy. Save your sanity.

[elanya.livejournal.com]

If you really didn't care... it wouldn't make you so ill, I think.

It really is *just* a job. You have contacts and abilities to help you find something better. Customers who bitcvh at you deserve pity, for being so caught up in materialism that whether or not their phone is working can drive them to such extremes of anger over something so inconsequential. It is like Sara, in the labrinth. You have to realize that they have no power over you., At worst, they might be abe to make you lose your job. Would that be a bad thing? No. Be like the mountain for which the currents of thier anger must divert... or something, Forgive me, I'm feeling philosophical today :o I blame the gnomes.

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[mousme.livejournal.com]

*lol*

Gnomes and gremlins are responsible for almost everything, in my experience. ;)

[djs-specs.livejournal.com]

I know a lot of you think that I'm being a "job snob" about this, that I think I'm too good for this work or what have you, but I'd like to flatter myself that by thinking that it's not that.

Oh hon, I hope you don't think I was talking about you when I wrote my little rant. I honestly wasn't - I was talking about a certain someone else.

If leaving the job will make you happy, do it. Of course, it'd be good if you walked out of one job into another one, but life's not perfect.

*big hugs*

As the Monty Python boys say... "Spam, spam, spam, spam."

Er, I meant "Always look on the bright side of life."

Seriously, I did ;)

[chasingthenuns.livejournal.com]

i think you're too good for the job. you have many talents that just aren't being used when you have customers bitch at you all day. fuck the money and find something you love!