*hums tunelessly to self*

[mousme]

No more carefree laughter
Silence ever after
Walking through an empty house, tears in my eyes
Here is where the story ends, this is goodbye

Knowing me, knowing you
There is nothing we can do
Knowing me, knowing you
We just have to face it, this time we're through
Breaking up is never easy, I know but I have to go
Knowing me, knowing you
It's the best I can do

Mem'ries, good days, bad days
They'll be with me always
In these old familiar rooms children would play
Now there's only emptiness, nothing to say

Knowing me, knowing you
There is nothing we can do
Knowing me, knowing you
We just have to face it, this time we're through
Breaking up is never easy, I know but I have to go
Knowing me, knowing you
It's the best I can do

Knowing me, knowing you
There is nothing we can do
Knowing me, knowing you
We just have to face it, this time we're through
Breaking up is never easy, I know but I have to go
Knowing me, knowing you
It's the best I can do


Is it possible to have a mid-life crisis at 24?

I never thought so until now, but I'm not so sure.

Too many thoughts going through my head all at once, none of them good. Trying to figure out where the hell my life is going, if it's gong anywhere at all. Haven't accomplished a damned thing, and I'm 24 years old. Keats was already dead.

I should be content with being average. In fact, I'm ever so slightly above average, so I should be elated, right?

I remember seeing the movie "Amadeus" when I was about nine or ten, and I cried at the end because I felt sorry for Salieri, because I knew what it was like to be him. To know what it is that you lack and will never have. Ignorance is bliss.

Comments

[mhw.livejournal.com]

Firstly, most importantly: *hug*

You're allowed a crisis any time you need it. And I believe that crises are needed, in the sense of those (for me, 3am) moments of looking at the self and at life and thinking "So what's it all about, then? what's it for?" Valuable answers can be found at those times. Then again, they can also be exquisitely frustrating times of no answers at all.

I wonder what kind of things these are that you feel you haven't 'accomplished'? Are they the kind for which one needs an audience, or simply a feeling of self-accomplishment? because the self is the unkindest critic, you know. There's a bad tendency for people to think "Oh, if I can do it, well, it can hardly be worthwhile, can it?" - watch out for that trap. You run the risk of not valuing in yourself exactly those things that make you precious and wonderful to everyone else.

Quarter-life crisis

[sorceror.livejournal.com]

Well, I know that I certainly did.

I'm sort of going through a third-of-life crisis now too, if that helps.

Re: Quarter-life crisis

[mousme.livejournal.com]

*squish*

Sorry to hear that. :(

I haven't seen you in forever. That must be remedied. We both need to see Steve and tease him about past Incarnate games, and I need to pitch my really great character concept to you. ;)