I think it's Monday

Still having weird disconnectedness problems due to scheduling woes. As of next week, however, I am back on my regular work schedule until further notice. Huzzah!

My theoretical trip to Oklahoma is a no-go, unfortunately. I am disappointed, but I know that it's probably a good thing, financially speaking, if I don't go. An entire week out of pocket, plus travel expenses, is not really something I can afford right now. *sigh* I really wanted to go, though. Next year, maybe. At this point it feels as though I'm never going to get any vacation time ever again. It's been nearly six years since my last real vacation. I did get a week of paid time off at Bell Mobility (well, five days' worth, anyway), but they forced me to take it in January 2003 when I had no money and no place to go, so it didn't feel like much of a vacation (I spent much of it cleaning, as I recall).

I am in a weird place, headspace-wise. I blame the weather, and the fact that I've had the weirdest schedule ever for a while. I really do much better on a regular schedule. Right now the apartment isn't clean, I have no books to read (well, almost no books), and I'm a little behind on Skywatch. I'm not in a terrible mood, but I'm less patient than I like to be, and I know that this behaviour pattern in me usually indicates that I'm more depressed than usual. I don't think it's anything more than just disthymia, attributable to the weather and erratic sleep patterns, but I rather hope I can shake myself out of it in the next two weeks or so. I want to get this place clean before the end of June (I know, most of you are boggling at the thought that it can take up to a month for me to clean the place), and preferably before the weather gets unbearably hot.

I have a list of things to do today that's as long as my arm, all of which cost money. *sigh* On the plus side, I am very much enjoying actually having the money to spend on doing all the stuff I need to do. I looked at my bank balance the day before yesterday, and was mildly shocked to see that it's in really good shape, considering it's the beginning of the month and I have rent to pay.

( Nattering about financial stuff, all of it positive )

The plan for today is to get food and a few summer clothes. I thought I had summer clothes until I went through my closet the other day and realized that I had to get rid of two of my favourite shirts last year, which I literally wore out through years of use. I have only one pair of jeans, which are also wearing out. I have very few summer tops that I can wear to work. So, clothes it is.

If I have time, I shall also possibly be getting myself a new toy. I have been pondering getting myself this toy since November or thereabouts, and I am 99% sure that it will be worth the investment for me. I shall have to go to the store and see the price of the toy and all attendant toy accessories (batteries not included, and all that) and see if it's within my budget for the time being.

I'm choosing to think of the toy as a consolation prize for not being able to go to Oklahoma.

Okay. I have to get going, otherwise none of the stuff on my list is ever going to get done.


Also, this icon was made for me by the lovely and talented toughlovemuse. It's Sisyphus, get it? ;)

New and shiny

I got myself a PS2.

Yes, am now officially a computer gamer. Or whatever it's called.

Final Fantasy X is very, very pretty. Unfortunately, I can't figure out how to save my game, which means I've had to go through the entire beginning sequence four times now. Before you ask, I did in fact RTFM, and the FM sayeth that there should be a "saving sphere" every now and then that I must use. I just haven't seen any so far. Either I'm blind, or else I just haven't got far enough in the game for it to warrant saving. I'm slightly annoyed by this, but thus far that has been outweighed by the shiny. :)

Um, can anyone tell me what I'm doing wrong?

*goes back to RTFM again*