Halfway there
Apr. 27th, 2025 02:11 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mousmeThis stretch of night shifts is brutal. It doesn't help that I basically haven't been sleeping more than a handful of hours per day because everyone keeps wanting me to phone them about stuff. Normally I make a point of scheduling nothing during my night shifts for precisely this reason, but of course I can't afford to ignore my mortgage specialist nor the moving company, among others.
Today's call was with my biological father, Brian. We ended up chatting for nearly two hours. He was pleasant to talk to, but I got a weird vibe off him, I won't lie. He also tap-danced around a lot of my questions surrounding the decision to proceed with adoption, and kept trying to give me a linear narrative of his life without telling me about his feelings at the time or really getting into it at all. He tried to pass off the failure of his marriage as simply two incompatible people, and mentioned that he had been "lost" and "trying to find [himself]," which I can believe, but I don't for a second think it's the full story. We're going to chat again on Tuesday, and hopefully he'll have some better answers for me by then.
KK was kind enough to pick up some Covid tests, and so far I am testing negative, but I do appear to have picked up some sort of bug. At first I thought it was the CPAP drying out my throat combined with sleep deprivation, but I'm still fighting off the headache and sore throat, and now congestion is settling in. I am deeply unhappy about this. I hate being sick, and I haven't had a virus in close to six years, so I didn't exactly want to start now. I don't want to call in sick tomorrow, either, because I would be the third person calling in sick over the weekend, but I also feel like absolute garbage.
Anyway, I think that's it for now. Catch you on the flip side, friends!
Today's call was with my biological father, Brian. We ended up chatting for nearly two hours. He was pleasant to talk to, but I got a weird vibe off him, I won't lie. He also tap-danced around a lot of my questions surrounding the decision to proceed with adoption, and kept trying to give me a linear narrative of his life without telling me about his feelings at the time or really getting into it at all. He tried to pass off the failure of his marriage as simply two incompatible people, and mentioned that he had been "lost" and "trying to find [himself]," which I can believe, but I don't for a second think it's the full story. We're going to chat again on Tuesday, and hopefully he'll have some better answers for me by then.
KK was kind enough to pick up some Covid tests, and so far I am testing negative, but I do appear to have picked up some sort of bug. At first I thought it was the CPAP drying out my throat combined with sleep deprivation, but I'm still fighting off the headache and sore throat, and now congestion is settling in. I am deeply unhappy about this. I hate being sick, and I haven't had a virus in close to six years, so I didn't exactly want to start now. I don't want to call in sick tomorrow, either, because I would be the third person calling in sick over the weekend, but I also feel like absolute garbage.
Anyway, I think that's it for now. Catch you on the flip side, friends!
