Where does the time go?
Jan. 18th, 2022 09:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mousmeI blinked and six days went by.
I find it really difficult to carve time out of my day to update my journal, even when I have the day off. I feel bad about leaving KK "alone" after I basically abandoned her all day to deal with my dogs or whatever else is happening that day. I'm falling back into the pattern I always seem to have when I live in the same house as someone else, which is to worry that my entire existence is inconveniencing the person I live with, and that if they'd known what a horrifying ordeal it is to share a home with me they'd never have agreed to it. (No, it's not rational, I know.)
I need to find a ladder and get over myself. I think I'd probably feel less terrible about things if I made more of an effort around the house, which means I need to either find a source of energy on the weekends, or sacrifice some sleep during the week to get more things done. I haven't found the magic key to unlock energy or motivation on that score, but I guess if something changes I'll let you know. ;)
My boss told me yesterday that I am going back on shift for the next three months or so (and honestly, probably longer, but he's pretending it's temporary and I am allowing him to pretend), which is not great news for me. He's also officially pulling me off the project that my previous boss gave to me, and has assigned me another project. So now I have a full-time project to do while also working full-time on shift, which is actually a pretty cool project. Too bad it means trying to work two full-time jobs simultaneously.
Okay. It's way past my bedtime (hence the difficulty of updating here, it usually means getting less sleep). I am working nights tomorrow, but I have a full day beforehand. I am going to go for a run, among other things, because I am getting back into running in order to get into some semblance of better physical condition, and ideally I'd like to get in a nap before work, but I also have errands, and it's either run them tomorrow or wait for the weekend, and I have other things to do this weekend. Bleh.
Good night, friends. Catch you on the flip side!
I find it really difficult to carve time out of my day to update my journal, even when I have the day off. I feel bad about leaving KK "alone" after I basically abandoned her all day to deal with my dogs or whatever else is happening that day. I'm falling back into the pattern I always seem to have when I live in the same house as someone else, which is to worry that my entire existence is inconveniencing the person I live with, and that if they'd known what a horrifying ordeal it is to share a home with me they'd never have agreed to it. (No, it's not rational, I know.)
I need to find a ladder and get over myself. I think I'd probably feel less terrible about things if I made more of an effort around the house, which means I need to either find a source of energy on the weekends, or sacrifice some sleep during the week to get more things done. I haven't found the magic key to unlock energy or motivation on that score, but I guess if something changes I'll let you know. ;)
My boss told me yesterday that I am going back on shift for the next three months or so (and honestly, probably longer, but he's pretending it's temporary and I am allowing him to pretend), which is not great news for me. He's also officially pulling me off the project that my previous boss gave to me, and has assigned me another project. So now I have a full-time project to do while also working full-time on shift, which is actually a pretty cool project. Too bad it means trying to work two full-time jobs simultaneously.
Okay. It's way past my bedtime (hence the difficulty of updating here, it usually means getting less sleep). I am working nights tomorrow, but I have a full day beforehand. I am going to go for a run, among other things, because I am getting back into running in order to get into some semblance of better physical condition, and ideally I'd like to get in a nap before work, but I also have errands, and it's either run them tomorrow or wait for the weekend, and I have other things to do this weekend. Bleh.
Good night, friends. Catch you on the flip side!
