Just send the goddamned fax already, Phnee

[mousme]

Okay, yeah, so I'm procrastinating. Procrastinating a lot, in fact, on sending out this fax to register for the dispatcher course.

Partly it's because I'm not sure I have the money. But that's not really what's stopping me.

Mostly it's sheer, unadulterated terror. I have a job. An unstable, boring, repetitive, and unrewarding job, but a job. One I know I can do. I have no such certainties about dispatching. Part of me is convinced this is too good to be true. How could I possibly ever learn to do emergency dispatch during two courses that last two weekends each? It seems unrealistic.

The rational bit of my brain is pointing out that, even if four weekends isn't enough, it'll still be a start. The irrational bit of my brain is running around in circles, alternately flapping its arms and wringing its hands.

If I put this off long enough, there won't be any room left to register. I have to pull out my credentials (these people insist that I prove I finished high school, imagine that!) and fax those along with my registration form. Ironically enough, I don't have my high school diploma anymore. No idea where it went. I do have my diploma from McGill, though, so that should do just as well, hopefully. I mean, if I went to university, it follows that I finished high school, right?

I think my McGill diploma is in a box at my parents' place. So that means going there and trying to dig it out of wherever it's stored. Meep.


There is no really good reason for me not to do any of this. Finding the diploma wouldn't take that long. Sending the fax would take even less time. Gah.

Of course, that would make it real.


...


Am I allowed to go hide in a corner until this all goes away?


...


I thought not.

Comments

Re: GO GO GO!

[whiskeygirl8.livejournal.com]

THAT'S what you need! For a while after the parachuting, I would say, "I jumped out of an airplane. I can do anything." It certainly does give you a sense of, "Anything is easy after that." Especially since I almost didn't make it out of the plane.

Re: GO GO GO!

[mousme.livejournal.com]

I keep thinking that myself. If I have any money at all this summer, I may try and convince fearsclave to go skydiving again this summer.

That way I can say with conviction: "I jumped out of an airplane. What's stopping me from this?"

This year is all about pushing my boundaries. I'm writing a play, I'm going to sing in public (yikes!), and we'll see what happens after that. :D

Re: GO GO GO!

[whiskeygirl8.livejournal.com]

I don't think you'll have to do much convincing. He liked that a LOT.

Pushing boundaries is good. I think that's what I did last year. Is there going to be a recording of you singing in public? I wanna hear.

Re: GO GO GO!

[mousme.livejournal.com]

Someone might have a camera. There was last time (I didn't sing, though, I just played), so it's a fairly safe bet.

Re: GO GO GO!

[fearsclave.livejournal.com]

Precisely.

*adds taking Phnee skydiving to this summer's Master Shenanigans Plan*

Re: GO GO GO!

[whiskeygirl8.livejournal.com]

You have "Take Phnee to Tulsa" on it already, right? Because, we HAVE to get her here. It just wouldn't be right without her.

You know, if she can get the time off and is short money, we could probably figure a way to help that out. Cuz, I DESPERATELY want her to come, too. I mean, we have to go country dancin' together! (And, tell her I would SO two-step with her.) (Obviously, I could tell her that myself, but you can do it in person, which works better.)

Re: GO GO GO!

[mousme.livejournal.com]

Well, it's definitely on my list. I will see about getting the time off, and how much money I can scrape up by that time. :)

Re: GO GO GO!

[fearsclave.livejournal.com]

Pushing boundaries?

*volunteers to help*

Volunteering

[mousme.livejournal.com]

Your services are duly accepted, and gladly so.

Suggestions are welcome. :D

Re: Volunteering

[elanya.livejournal.com]

I suggest tallship sailing. It is awesome. *awesome* Did I mention awesome?

P.S. Awesome.