So much for sanity
Dec. 19th, 2005 12:15 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mousmeL isn't here for the morning. She should be back soon, but things have been sort of crazy since she hasn't been around.
Obviously things have been kind of roller-coaster-y for me since November, for those of you who haven't noticed. :P November will do that to me. So, when the metro tracks start to look tempting, it's time to do something about it. (Yes, I'm being flippant. Deal.) So my meds doc and I decided that maybe we should experiment a little with an SSRI at a low dose and see if we can't trick my brain into not trying to off me during the holidays. Also, fiddling with the dosage of the anticonvulsants, to see if that helps. Whee.
You know, it would be nice to have a birthday go by when I'm not actually feeling suicidal. I don't think I've had one of those in a while, not that you can tell by reading my LJ (I think that might be a good thing, actually).
So, anyway, the point is: meds change. Meds fiddling. Already feeling a bit loopy, and I've had to correct bazillions of typos in this post already.
I figured this post ought to serve as a warning, in case the meds change doesn't work and I end up going completely crazy. It has happened in the past. So, consider yourselves warned.
Then again, I don't think I've been exactly pleasant to be around in the past few months. So, you have my apologies for that as well.
Happy trails, folks!
Obviously things have been kind of roller-coaster-y for me since November, for those of you who haven't noticed. :P November will do that to me. So, when the metro tracks start to look tempting, it's time to do something about it. (Yes, I'm being flippant. Deal.) So my meds doc and I decided that maybe we should experiment a little with an SSRI at a low dose and see if we can't trick my brain into not trying to off me during the holidays. Also, fiddling with the dosage of the anticonvulsants, to see if that helps. Whee.
You know, it would be nice to have a birthday go by when I'm not actually feeling suicidal. I don't think I've had one of those in a while, not that you can tell by reading my LJ (I think that might be a good thing, actually).
So, anyway, the point is: meds change. Meds fiddling. Already feeling a bit loopy, and I've had to correct bazillions of typos in this post already.
I figured this post ought to serve as a warning, in case the meds change doesn't work and I end up going completely crazy. It has happened in the past. So, consider yourselves warned.
Then again, I don't think I've been exactly pleasant to be around in the past few months. So, you have my apologies for that as well.
Happy trails, folks!
Re: Medical interventions
Date: 2005-12-23 06:48 am (UTC)It's not that I was in a rush to judge (although I will freely plead guilty to that crime frequently enough). It's just that I like you, and don't like to think of people I like feeling that they have to change and blame themselves and bend themselves into pretzels to fit a situation which they could otherwise change. You're right. I don't have lots of information about the context, circumstances and particulars. I definitely don't want to offend, I don't think of you as "crazy" and I hope you get yourself into a better set of circumstances and frame of mind soon. Wish I could share some of the California sun with you.
Re: Medical interventions -- RATS not signed in -- hate it when I do that!