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What did you do in 2004 that you had never done before?


I took country dancing lessons, and came out to my parents, and got a job in a transport company.

Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I kept many of them, and I made very good progress on those I didn't manage to keep entirely.

Did anyone close to you give birth?


[livejournal.com profile] karine!

Did anyone close to you die?

My maternal uncle died, although he was close only by blood. There's been a lot of death around me this year, but none of it that hit very close to home.

My paternal uncle (one of them) came close to death, and has actually had a complete and nigh-well miraculous recovery, thank God. I saw him at Christmas, and he was looking extremely well. I forgot to mention this at the time, but I am immensely grateful that he's all right.

What countries did you visit?

None. I am appalled by my lack of travel.

What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?

A bit more spare time to explore ideas and otherwise be creative. This means time unencumbered by work, and more importantly unencumbered by mental illness. It's very hard to be creative when crippled by depression. :P

I'd also like to have just a little bit more money. Enough so that I don't have to worry about my bills anymore, and so that unexpected expenses don't cause panic attacks.


What dates from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

March 11th, 2004: I come out to my parents
June 15th, 2004. I start work at Erb Transport.

October 15th, 2004. Tarasmas. I participate in the creation of sacred space, and begin the slow realization that takes another month or two to fully percolate that I am beginning what is probably one of the best times of my life, along with some pretty fantastic people.

What was your biggest achievement of the year?


Saying that getting a job was my biggest achievement is selling myself a bit short, I think. Actually, I think I'm my biggest achievement this year. Something clicked for me a few months ago, and suddenly I'm no longer the person I was a year ago. I'm not completely different, but I feel as though I'm leaving a lot of the more negative aspects of myself behind now. I hope.

What was your biggest failure?

I didn't have any resounding failures, I don't think. No breathtaking accomplishments, but no terrifying abysses of badness either. I suppose I didn't progress as far as I wanted to, but that doesn't so much constitute failure as it does a minor setback. Even then, I'm not even sure. Progress is progress, and in my case it's not a race.

What was the best thing you bought?

Technically, I didn't buy them, but snowshoes! Eee!

Did you suffer illness or injury?

No serious illness or injury, thank goodness, apart from a fairly serious bout of depression while I was unemployed, and the occasional hypomanic phase afterward. Yay for medication! Oh, and migraines.

Whose behavior merited celebration?

Many of my friends, for their willingness to take risks in order to make their lives better, and for their incredible courage in the face of adversity.


Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?


President Bush's, for one, as well as most of his administration and those working for them. My supervisor's behaviour, too, although I was only appalled and not actually depressed by that.

Where did most of your money go? Rent, car, chipping away at my debts, gas. Blick.

What did you get really, really excited about?

My friends, my job, my writing, my dancing lessons, snowshoeing.

What song will always remind you of 2004?

Probably Shaye's "Happy Baby."

Compared to this time last year, are you:

Happier or sadder?
Much happier.

Thinner or fatter? Thinner.

Richer or poorer? Objectively, richer, but it doesn't feel like it since all the money is being siphoned off into the vortex created by being poor the previous year or so.

How did you spend Christmas?

With family and friends. I am, as I have said many times before, extraordinarily blessed.

Did you fall in love in 2004?

Nope.

How many 1-night stands?

Bwahahahaaaaaa!

...

Ahem. None.

What was your favourite TV program?


Stargate SG-1 (the older seasons that I borrowed from people), Firefly (also borrowed), Sailor Moon (borrowed), The Dead Zone (if anyone has DVDs of this that they'd be willing to lend, I will be their friend forever and ever and ever!).

What was the best book you read?

I read a lot of really good books last year. An Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison springs to mind as one of the best.

What was your greatest musical discovery?

Too many to choose from. Country music is a lot of fun, though.

Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

Don't have the energy to waste on hatred. I don't dislike anybody new, though.

What did you want and get?

A job. Many other things which aren't quite as quantifiable.

What did you want and not get?

Financial freedom. Self-confidence, although I've learned to fake it a lot better. Sometimes I even fool myself. I think that might be the trick.

What was your favourite film of this year?

Didn't see that many films. The Incredibles stands out right now.

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I turned 25, and went out for dinner with friends.

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Six months' more work at a steady job, six months less dealing with depression/hypomania/other manifestations of madness, having a supervisor who wasn't a misogynistic ass.

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?

There was none up until June. Depression and no job means that one dresses in clothes that are too big and that aren't especially flattering because one can't afford new ones and can't really be bothered to try looking halfway decent anyway.

After June, I switched to a grownup costume, which is sort of office chic, I guess. Black slacks and whatever slightly form-fitting top happens to be around at the time. Polo shirts in the summer and turtlenecks in the winter, with a few variations.

What kept you sane?

Literally? My meds.

Less literally? My friends. Creative spaces.

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Do you know, no one really stood out for me this year. Maybe Angelina Jolie?

What political issue stirred you the most?

That would have to be the whole gay marriage kerfuffle. Go us! The ongoing war in Iraq comes a pretty close second, though.

I also followed the Canadian election quite closely, as well as the demerger debates (less closely).

Who did you miss?

In particular, [livejournal.com profile] joane and [livejournal.com profile] shenlo and [livejournal.com profile] rowen26, who all moved to Halifax. I got to see the first two over Christmas, which was lovely. Hopefully I'll see them all again very soon.

Who was the best new person you met?

I met a few cool new people, but only very briefly, in the context of NaNoWriMo.

Best new person, I guess, would have to be my coworker Natalie.

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.

I'll try to sum up what is turning out to be a very complicated but important lesson that I'm still working out in my mind. No guarantees that I'll be coherent.

Choosing your friends is perhaps the most difficult and most worthwhile endeavour you may ever undertake. It shows you what your values are, and determines how you will live your life. Every friend is a milestone that changes the direction of your life in subtle and far-reaching ways.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:

If this is it for me, baby
That's just fine
I'm not lookin' anymore
For what will make me happy, baby
That's just fine
I'm not lookin' anymore.

Date: 2005-01-04 11:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sultrysong.livejournal.com
I almost made notes as I was going through, there's so many things I want to comment on. I think what struck me most was the big where you said you are your biggest accomplishment this year, because that's something that affects everything, including the people around you. Go You!

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