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Distressing Dream Edition #Whatever
Apr. 19th, 2014 08:14 amI woke up from a rather distressing dream and told myself I should remember it for later so I could write it down. Of course it has faded considerably since then, but I'm hoping I can reconstruct it well enough.
I was at home and got a call that an elderly relative of mine had gotten into trouble. In the dream I knew this was a great-aunt on my father's side who was suffering from some kind of dementia, and while I barely knew her, I knew that I couldn't just leave her at the police station where she'd been brought after she was found wandering, because no one else in my family were going to go get her.
The trouble was that this was in a place I'd never been to before, and I was worried I wouldn't be able to find it. I entered the coordinates on the GPS in my car, and drove as far as I could manage following the instructions. I arrived close to where the GPS told me it was supposed to be and parked the car, then realised that my destination was further than I thought. Still, since I had parked the car, I decided to continue on foot, convinced that it couldn't be all that far. I had brought the dog with me, so I knew that it would do him some good to do some walking.
My optimism was short-lived, however. No matter how hard I tried to get to my destination, the more I got turned around. I was in a place with extremely steep hills, and I keep getting progressively more tired as I went up and down the various streets, trying to find my way. I pulled out my phone to see if the GPS on that would help me find my way, but no matter how much I tried to follow the directions, the blue dot on the map was always maddeningly just out of reach. It was as if the streets were moving just enough to keep me from getting there, changing directions and even their orientation as needed.
Eventually I ran into the station commander, who immediately began berating me for not getting to the police station. He didn't want to hear about my difficulties finding the place, and talked right over me. He yelled at me in the middle of the street, accusing me of wanting to leave my elderly relative without assistance, and of being a generally useless human being. Didn't I care about my family? I should be trying harder to take care of them, not fucking around doing things only for myself. I was a horrible, selfish person who didn't do anything for her family, he continued, and if it was up to him it would be a offence punishable by prison.
Anyway, I woke up without ever finding my elderly relative or the police station. It seems even my subconscious thinks I'm a useless asshole. :/
I was at home and got a call that an elderly relative of mine had gotten into trouble. In the dream I knew this was a great-aunt on my father's side who was suffering from some kind of dementia, and while I barely knew her, I knew that I couldn't just leave her at the police station where she'd been brought after she was found wandering, because no one else in my family were going to go get her.
The trouble was that this was in a place I'd never been to before, and I was worried I wouldn't be able to find it. I entered the coordinates on the GPS in my car, and drove as far as I could manage following the instructions. I arrived close to where the GPS told me it was supposed to be and parked the car, then realised that my destination was further than I thought. Still, since I had parked the car, I decided to continue on foot, convinced that it couldn't be all that far. I had brought the dog with me, so I knew that it would do him some good to do some walking.
My optimism was short-lived, however. No matter how hard I tried to get to my destination, the more I got turned around. I was in a place with extremely steep hills, and I keep getting progressively more tired as I went up and down the various streets, trying to find my way. I pulled out my phone to see if the GPS on that would help me find my way, but no matter how much I tried to follow the directions, the blue dot on the map was always maddeningly just out of reach. It was as if the streets were moving just enough to keep me from getting there, changing directions and even their orientation as needed.
Eventually I ran into the station commander, who immediately began berating me for not getting to the police station. He didn't want to hear about my difficulties finding the place, and talked right over me. He yelled at me in the middle of the street, accusing me of wanting to leave my elderly relative without assistance, and of being a generally useless human being. Didn't I care about my family? I should be trying harder to take care of them, not fucking around doing things only for myself. I was a horrible, selfish person who didn't do anything for her family, he continued, and if it was up to him it would be a offence punishable by prison.
Anyway, I woke up without ever finding my elderly relative or the police station. It seems even my subconscious thinks I'm a useless asshole. :/
