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Crazy couple of days...
Apr. 18th, 2014 02:05 amWork has been stupidly busy lately. We had a fairly serious incident tonight, which alas I can't divulge, but it kept me hopping for a good six hours. It could have been much worse, of course, so I'm glad for that, but it didn't make for a quiet night shift. Now I barely have four hours left and I still have all my regular work to do.
*falls over*
In other news, I am still tired. You know how some people say they don't remember ever not feeling tired? That's not actually the case with me. I remember a time when I didn't constantly feel like I was on the verge of collapse, but that was well over a year ago. My job has always been demanding, and during the winter of 2008-2009 I worked so many hours that by the end I looked like someone had punched me in both eyes.
This is not the same situation, of course. I'm not working much overtime at all, but there's a lot more commuting involved in my life, and unlike before I can't just take one of my days off to just sit back and watch movies or read books or something. There's always a million things to be done when you're not single anymore, and I can't justify taking time for myself when I could be cleaning or running errands or something.
Part of me is pretty sure I can't be as tired as I think I am. I am trying to figure out if I'm just imagining this, or malingering, or at least blowing this all out of proportion, but the internet has been unhelpful, and I won't be getting my test results back from the doctor for quite some time. The internet mostly seems interested in determining whether other people are malingering, which is not what I want. The one questionnaire I found resulted in a "yes" answer no matter what information I entered, because the end conveniently linked me to the websites pay-per-use psychiatry consultation services. I think that there might be some bias there. :P
Anyway, I am looking forward to a long weekend at home. It's Easter Weekend, and I'll be seeing my parents on Saturday and hopefully spending all of Sunday at home watching Bean hunt for Easter eggs. Because of the overtime and Bean's birthday (which meant switching shifts around like crazy) I haven't actually been home as much in the past few weeks, and I'm looking forward to some "down" time. By which I mean, "time not spent in Ottawa," since there's very little that qualifies as "down" about my life these days. Like I said before, the days of being able to take a day to recover from work are long since past. It's not a bad trade-off, just one that's taking some getting used to.
*falls over*
In other news, I am still tired. You know how some people say they don't remember ever not feeling tired? That's not actually the case with me. I remember a time when I didn't constantly feel like I was on the verge of collapse, but that was well over a year ago. My job has always been demanding, and during the winter of 2008-2009 I worked so many hours that by the end I looked like someone had punched me in both eyes.
This is not the same situation, of course. I'm not working much overtime at all, but there's a lot more commuting involved in my life, and unlike before I can't just take one of my days off to just sit back and watch movies or read books or something. There's always a million things to be done when you're not single anymore, and I can't justify taking time for myself when I could be cleaning or running errands or something.
Part of me is pretty sure I can't be as tired as I think I am. I am trying to figure out if I'm just imagining this, or malingering, or at least blowing this all out of proportion, but the internet has been unhelpful, and I won't be getting my test results back from the doctor for quite some time. The internet mostly seems interested in determining whether other people are malingering, which is not what I want. The one questionnaire I found resulted in a "yes" answer no matter what information I entered, because the end conveniently linked me to the websites pay-per-use psychiatry consultation services. I think that there might be some bias there. :P
Anyway, I am looking forward to a long weekend at home. It's Easter Weekend, and I'll be seeing my parents on Saturday and hopefully spending all of Sunday at home watching Bean hunt for Easter eggs. Because of the overtime and Bean's birthday (which meant switching shifts around like crazy) I haven't actually been home as much in the past few weeks, and I'm looking forward to some "down" time. By which I mean, "time not spent in Ottawa," since there's very little that qualifies as "down" about my life these days. Like I said before, the days of being able to take a day to recover from work are long since past. It's not a bad trade-off, just one that's taking some getting used to.
