Computer update

For reasons unbeknownst to me, there have been delays. Cleopatra will be in the shop until January 5th.

So, since I will not be at work on the 24th, 25th, 26th, and 27th of December, nor will I be at work the 31st of December or the 1st, 2nd, and 3rd of January, expect very little news of me.

That is all.

Actually, no. I want to add that this sucks.

Also, none of those dates include Fridays, for my Bluebook people, so the SG4 mission will proceed apace, although there will be fewer posts from me.

GBP!

Confetti and glitter! It's joane's birthday!

Wheee!

Ten minutes...

Ten minutes before work is over for four days.

Three days of Christmas-type stuff, then one day which I will (hopefully) take to do some re-evaluating.

Taking a quick mental stock even now, I don't like what I see, and it seems like a Sisyphian task to overhaul myself. There isn't a single part of me with which I'm satisfied. Every time I think I'm making progress, I slide back down the hill. It's not a very steep hill, compared to others', I'm the first to admit it. It's not a hill with many rocks in it, either, by comparison. And yet, I always find myself at the bottom of it.

So, on the 27th, I'm going to sit down with myself and take stock, a little more in depth, and see if there's anything I can do about it. If there isn't, well, I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

I've never had any goals of my own. My goals were always someone else's goals. So now, here I am about to turn twenty-seven, and I have no fucking clue what I want to do with my life. I don't know where my strengths are. I have no real talents. I have a few small abilities, but nothing that's really my own. Just stuff that are pale imitations of the people around me. I'm a chameleon, and an unsuccessful chameleon, at that. I try my hand at everything and succeed at very little indeed.

Hey, look. Five minutes before work is out. That's exciting.

It also means that I won't have net access after this. I suppose I shouldn't post this. It's a very, very depressing post to be putting up just before Christmas.

Okay, onto something more cheerful: Merry Christmas!

To everyone I won't see online this weekend:

Merry Christmas!

(To those who don't celebrate Christmas: have a wonderful weekend filled with excitment and adventure, or just quiet and contentment and peace. Whatever brings you happiness.)

See you Wednesday!