Please stop the world, I'd like to get off the ride...

[mousme]

My only reaction to things these days is to want to snap at people. Unreasonably.

(I'm taking a few minutes to whinge now, but I'll try to keep it short. I hate it when I go into self-pity overdrive.)

So, yes. I would like the sucking to stop now. My life is the same as it was three months ago. My mood just isn't matching it anymore. It's like trying to swim in a lake of chewed bubblegum. Nothing has changed, but everything's harder, and has been since about a week before the Random Colour/Invisible concert.

So, six weeks of depression, three of which were particularly bad. Really, it can stop anytime now, and I won't complain, I swear.

Also, now that it's the construction holiday, I seem to be feeling more keenly the fact that I'm not getting the summer vacation I had planned for early this winter. Two weeks in the Maritimes, of which one would be spent entirely by myself in a park somewhere on PEI.

In fact, at this juncture, it looks like I won't be getting any vacation whatsoever for at least another nine months. That'll make it over two years without vacation. At the very least.

I want out.

Comments

[djs-specs.livejournal.com]

I want out.

Please, take me with you.

*kersquish*

[fearsclave.livejournal.com]

If you like, you can have the cabin this weekend... and whenever you feel like it, really.

[miseri.livejournal.com]

And I'm feeling lonely.

Will you meet me for dinner tomorrow?

[kalkuly.livejournal.com]

Man - it seems like everyone is feeling it - personally i would like to just curl up and sleep for the next decade or so. (no vacation for me either! although depression isn't quite what it was last month still not that great shakes although at least the crying has stopped)

hope things get a bit better for you! (and everyone else too!)

[morsefan.livejournal.com]

Yeesh -- you need a vacation. Even a few days helps if what you mostly do is futz around the house. And a real one (not one of these "I'm visiting my parents but I'm really going to the law library six hours every day" like I do). Two years is too long for anyone, and frankly, it will help your moods -- probably at least (I'm not so sure my last one did -- meltdown since, but I think that was because of what I learned on the vacation and came back to afterwards, not because I took a vacation).

Hang in there!