What was I saying?
Jan. 30th, 2021 07:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
mousme I was going to write about something meaningful, or at the very least not random, but I got distracted by something else, and now I don't remember at all. I will probably remember at a time when I am nowhere near in a position to do anything about it.
The Quaker retreat went/is going well. There are evening activities which I'm not attending. Originally I wasn't going to attend because of D&D tonight, but that got cancelled, but honestly I am super tired and the idea of doing more socializing, even just via Zoom, feels like a bit too much.
Anyway, I am watching Twitch for the first time in, like, two years (aside from Critical Role). My friend and favourite streamer went live while I was winding down for the evening, so I just jumped into his chat and we're all just hanging out now while he plays Hades. It's been really nice.
I stopped interacting with Twitch as a streamer/watcher of streams after a really unpleasant experience in this streamer's Discord, actually, I was really involved at the time, and was one of his moderators. Then someone (another moderator) brought a problem to our attention: one of the regulars in his chat and Discord had just posted some truly alarming and horrifying shit about beating his eight year old step daughter. What were we going to do about it? To my surprise, the vast majority of the moderation team's attitude boiled down to "Well, he didn't post it HERE, so it's not our business how he chooses to raise his children." Which, you know, holy shit. It's a hell of a choice to make, you know? And when I called them on it, they all acted as if I was overreacting, as if this was just a question of a spanking rather than the very clear abuse it was. (I should note this was not out of the blue: this person had been complaining about the eight-year-old child's behaviour for months, painting himself as the victim of her being a spoiled brat.)
Anyway, I couldn't in good conscience go along with that. I reported the suspected child abuse to the authorities, and asked my friend to remove me as a moderator for his channel. He is still my friend, but he is not good with conflict and wants everyone to get along, and he was going through a pretty rough patch at the time, so I decided not to put him in the position of having to choose sides, as it were. He'd known all of the other mods for much longer than he'd known me, and even though I was pretty appalled at their life choices, I didn't want to make him feel like he had to pick between his older friends and his newer one(s), although that's not at all anything I would have asked him to do.
Many of those people were also streamers I followed, and I took that opportunity to unfollow/unsubscribe/etc. from everything to do with them. A lot of Twitch streamers are very much "good vibes only!" kinds of people, and looking back I am a little dismayed that I fell into the toxic positivity trap with them. Important lessons were learned, and at the time I was also working full-time and going to university, and letting go of my mild obsession with all things Twitch was easier than I thought it would be. I didn't really enjoy hanging out in my friend's stream while these people were there, and they often dominated the chat, so I stopped watching entirely, and just chatted with him casually on Twitter instead.
For reasons I don't know, they don't appear to be around these days. Apparently there was Drama in other Discord servers, and several of them just kind of dropped away, although I don't know if it's permanent or if it's just a temporary thing. Either way, I am not complaining right now, it's been nice to hang out, watch him game, and just chat like we used to.
He's still going strong, but I'm probably going to head to bed early-ish tonight. It's been a long week, made longer by the fact that I made poor decisions and went to bed late pretty much every single night, and I am paying for it now.
The Quaker retreat went/is going well. There are evening activities which I'm not attending. Originally I wasn't going to attend because of D&D tonight, but that got cancelled, but honestly I am super tired and the idea of doing more socializing, even just via Zoom, feels like a bit too much.
Anyway, I am watching Twitch for the first time in, like, two years (aside from Critical Role). My friend and favourite streamer went live while I was winding down for the evening, so I just jumped into his chat and we're all just hanging out now while he plays Hades. It's been really nice.
I stopped interacting with Twitch as a streamer/watcher of streams after a really unpleasant experience in this streamer's Discord, actually, I was really involved at the time, and was one of his moderators. Then someone (another moderator) brought a problem to our attention: one of the regulars in his chat and Discord had just posted some truly alarming and horrifying shit about beating his eight year old step daughter. What were we going to do about it? To my surprise, the vast majority of the moderation team's attitude boiled down to "Well, he didn't post it HERE, so it's not our business how he chooses to raise his children." Which, you know, holy shit. It's a hell of a choice to make, you know? And when I called them on it, they all acted as if I was overreacting, as if this was just a question of a spanking rather than the very clear abuse it was. (I should note this was not out of the blue: this person had been complaining about the eight-year-old child's behaviour for months, painting himself as the victim of her being a spoiled brat.)
Anyway, I couldn't in good conscience go along with that. I reported the suspected child abuse to the authorities, and asked my friend to remove me as a moderator for his channel. He is still my friend, but he is not good with conflict and wants everyone to get along, and he was going through a pretty rough patch at the time, so I decided not to put him in the position of having to choose sides, as it were. He'd known all of the other mods for much longer than he'd known me, and even though I was pretty appalled at their life choices, I didn't want to make him feel like he had to pick between his older friends and his newer one(s), although that's not at all anything I would have asked him to do.
Many of those people were also streamers I followed, and I took that opportunity to unfollow/unsubscribe/etc. from everything to do with them. A lot of Twitch streamers are very much "good vibes only!" kinds of people, and looking back I am a little dismayed that I fell into the toxic positivity trap with them. Important lessons were learned, and at the time I was also working full-time and going to university, and letting go of my mild obsession with all things Twitch was easier than I thought it would be. I didn't really enjoy hanging out in my friend's stream while these people were there, and they often dominated the chat, so I stopped watching entirely, and just chatted with him casually on Twitter instead.
For reasons I don't know, they don't appear to be around these days. Apparently there was Drama in other Discord servers, and several of them just kind of dropped away, although I don't know if it's permanent or if it's just a temporary thing. Either way, I am not complaining right now, it's been nice to hang out, watch him game, and just chat like we used to.
He's still going strong, but I'm probably going to head to bed early-ish tonight. It's been a long week, made longer by the fact that I made poor decisions and went to bed late pretty much every single night, and I am paying for it now.
