So much snow...
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mousmeIt's been snowing steadily for days here in Ottawa. It's a bit of a pain, because I don't have a driveway anymore, let alone a garage. I was so happy when I bought my house two years ago, because it meant I'd never have to dig my way in and out of snowbanks ever again. More fool me, it seems, since on the days it really counts I can't park in my own driveway anymore, and this will last for at least two more years. *sigh*
It's a temporary situation, but I'll be honest and say that two years of this feels like a very long time sometimes.
In the meantime, my no procrastination project is chugging along. I got a lot of stuff done yesterday (my Ontario paperwork, getting the oil changed in the car, all the fluids topped up, the tires checked and the windshield wipers replaced), and today I've got laundry on the go before I leave for work. I didn't make myself an "un-schedule" for today, because I only have two hours between the time I wake up and the time I need to leave for work. That left time for getting dressed, posting to LJ, washing the dishes, packing my meals for work, and getting in two loads of laundry. In fact, I underestimated the time it would take for laundry, and my second load won't be dry when I leave. I can only hope my landlord won't need the dryer tonight. :P
I don't think I will ever be a non-procrastinator, one of those terrifying (to me) people who always seem to get everything done in a timely fashion and never put off unpleasant tasks, so I'm hesitant to pronounce even this beginning a success. It's similar to alcoholism or drug abuse in that one is never recovered, only recovering. I've only been working properly on my procrastination for six days, so it's hard to say if this is just the euphoria of a new project talking, or a harbinger of true change.
On the plus side, if I fill my days with all my projects and things to do, I'll have less time to think about things. Or over-think things, depending on how you look at it. I already spend far too much time perseverating on a couple of different topics, so keeping myself and my mind occupied is a good thing. When I get overtired (which is all the time, these days), this tendency gets even worse fuelled by my own securities and tendencies toward paranoia.
I have a long list of closely held, totally irrational beliefs that I need to work on. I might come clean and post them here, maybe tomorrow. They're the kind of belief you internalise as a child and carry with you for the rest of your life, and if they're not constructive (as mine aren't), they can form some pretty strong neuroses. Since I'm determined to work past some of my issues, I'm at least going to have to work out what these beliefs all are, and then try to figure out how to either change them or work around them in the future.
It's a temporary situation, but I'll be honest and say that two years of this feels like a very long time sometimes.
In the meantime, my no procrastination project is chugging along. I got a lot of stuff done yesterday (my Ontario paperwork, getting the oil changed in the car, all the fluids topped up, the tires checked and the windshield wipers replaced), and today I've got laundry on the go before I leave for work. I didn't make myself an "un-schedule" for today, because I only have two hours between the time I wake up and the time I need to leave for work. That left time for getting dressed, posting to LJ, washing the dishes, packing my meals for work, and getting in two loads of laundry. In fact, I underestimated the time it would take for laundry, and my second load won't be dry when I leave. I can only hope my landlord won't need the dryer tonight. :P
I don't think I will ever be a non-procrastinator, one of those terrifying (to me) people who always seem to get everything done in a timely fashion and never put off unpleasant tasks, so I'm hesitant to pronounce even this beginning a success. It's similar to alcoholism or drug abuse in that one is never recovered, only recovering. I've only been working properly on my procrastination for six days, so it's hard to say if this is just the euphoria of a new project talking, or a harbinger of true change.
On the plus side, if I fill my days with all my projects and things to do, I'll have less time to think about things. Or over-think things, depending on how you look at it. I already spend far too much time perseverating on a couple of different topics, so keeping myself and my mind occupied is a good thing. When I get overtired (which is all the time, these days), this tendency gets even worse fuelled by my own securities and tendencies toward paranoia.
I have a long list of closely held, totally irrational beliefs that I need to work on. I might come clean and post them here, maybe tomorrow. They're the kind of belief you internalise as a child and carry with you for the rest of your life, and if they're not constructive (as mine aren't), they can form some pretty strong neuroses. Since I'm determined to work past some of my issues, I'm at least going to have to work out what these beliefs all are, and then try to figure out how to either change them or work around them in the future.
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Date: 2013-12-18 04:52 am (UTC)I' m glad to hear that the procrastination project is going so well! it sounds like you are off to a great start, regardless of early success euphoria or just feeling good - you're doing an amazing job.