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mousmeHi world! My name is Phnee, and I have been living inside my head since late last October.
So, I'd apologize for being AWOL and not reading LJ and as a result missing everyone's news and not commenting and all that... except that I have a vague feeling that all I've been posting here (when I do post) are apologies, interspersed with random stupidness.
So, uh. Yeah. I dunno. I got nothin'.
You'd think that with the return of the sun, I'd be back to my old self. I sort of am, but I'm sort of not. I'm okay with people once I'm out and with them, but I have to kick myself in the pants to get there.
The short version is that I've been ignoring the real world in favour of a couple of fantasy worlds. They're a lot shinier, don't involve peak oil or the Canadian government, and while the problems in them are pretty awful, they aren't my problems, and that makes them fun to disappear into for a while. Like, five months or so. Anyway.
There's no one big reason for all this. For the most part, I'm okay. I'm not hiding in a corner all depressed and angst-ridden and what have you. I'm just not interactingat all much with my regular internet folk, and the longer I go without checking LJ the guiltier I feel about it, and the more overwhelming it seems because I know I'll never be able to catch up.
In short? I suck. I owe a million people emails, I'm behind on a ton of semi-obligations to friends, and I have been getting sad phone messages from my mother because I haven't spoken to her in a while (which isn't exactly true: I saw her last week and speak to her on the phone regularly, but she doesn't think that counts).
Okay, in retrospect, maybe I should apologize. It just feels inadequate for how much I've been sucking at keeping in touch with anyone lately. :(
So, I'd apologize for being AWOL and not reading LJ and as a result missing everyone's news and not commenting and all that... except that I have a vague feeling that all I've been posting here (when I do post) are apologies, interspersed with random stupidness.
So, uh. Yeah. I dunno. I got nothin'.
You'd think that with the return of the sun, I'd be back to my old self. I sort of am, but I'm sort of not. I'm okay with people once I'm out and with them, but I have to kick myself in the pants to get there.
The short version is that I've been ignoring the real world in favour of a couple of fantasy worlds. They're a lot shinier, don't involve peak oil or the Canadian government, and while the problems in them are pretty awful, they aren't my problems, and that makes them fun to disappear into for a while. Like, five months or so. Anyway.
There's no one big reason for all this. For the most part, I'm okay. I'm not hiding in a corner all depressed and angst-ridden and what have you. I'm just not interacting
In short? I suck. I owe a million people emails, I'm behind on a ton of semi-obligations to friends, and I have been getting sad phone messages from my mother because I haven't spoken to her in a while (which isn't exactly true: I saw her last week and speak to her on the phone regularly, but she doesn't think that counts).
Okay, in retrospect, maybe I should apologize. It just feels inadequate for how much I've been sucking at keeping in touch with anyone lately. :(
