My days are getting away from me...

[mousme]

Once again, I have found myself in that weird place I swore I'd leave behind, in which I have no time for anything anymore. No time and no energy.

Because of my job, I've had to cut back my social stuff almost 90%. Other commitments I thought would be over by now are stretching out, and might still be here by summertime, by the looks of it. As much as I enjoy these things, I can't help but just feel tired thinking about it. My weekends go by in a blur of engagements and obligations (ones I enjoy, but obligations nonetheless), and when Monday comes I'm still exhausted and have ten thousand things left to do.

The apartment is still clean, but I need to give it some serious attention in some areas. Starting Monday I'll be going to the YMCA three times a week, and once more for yoga, which means my mornings will be halved in terms of time, and that'll leave me with *one* free morning a week in which to do all the Other Stuff that needs to be done during the week (because I usually don't have time on the weekends).

Also, I'm tired. I go to bed and I'm tired. I wake up and I'm still tired Part of this is the usual starting-a-new-job tiredness that usually stays with me for three or four months until I settle down properly into the routine. Except that there's more to it. I haven't actually felt properly rested since August of 2006. There was that bout of Mystery Tired™, which started at the beginning of August. Then I started work at Dial-A-Husband, and while I had plenty of nervous energy because of New Job Stress™, I was constantly exhausted (and I do mean exhausted: I could barely muster the energy to make myself food and go to bed on most days). Of course, I was working 50 to 60-hour weeks, so I attributed it to that. Then November was NaNoWriMo, which means being tired is par for the course, and then in December I started a new job (again), and my entire schedule shifted *twice*.

So I don't know if the fact that I constantly feel drained now is just residual stuff from having two new jobs in a short period of time, or if there's something more going on that I've simply ignored since August, or what.

There are also other things I want to do, but I don't know when I'll ever be able to conjure the time to do them.

Anyway, I don't know what to do about any of this. I'm just whining, I guess. Don't mind me.

Comments

[joane.livejournal.com]

{{{hugs and pets}}}

Let me get the Jewish mama out of my system quickly - you've had iron and thyroid levels run, right? And maybe a test for mono? It's a long-shot, but you never know.

I'm around and doing nothing but Being Sick and Sulking, if you want a sympathetic ear.

[pasley.livejournal.com]

Whine away my dear! You're allowed (plus it makes me feel better about all my whining), and you also have a right to feel overwhelmed and tired from the sounds of your grueling schedule.
(Please don't mind my asking, 'cause I only do it out of friendly concern, but do you think you might be. . . what is the term. . . over-extending yourself? Do you really have to do all those things you do?)
Anyway, I'm sorry to hear you're feeling bad. Hope things get better, that this is just a passing phase.
xox

[silly-imp.livejournal.com]

"that'll leave me with *one* free morning a week "

It sound's like your mornings are turning into the equivalent of many busy folks evenings, one (or perhap two) free per week! Without the added social benefit of actually seeing friends in the evenings, alas.

[tcaptain.livejournal.com]

Go ahead and whine, its an inalienable human right :)

I wish I had some advice, but I don't really...so I'll just say I'm sending good vibes your way.

As for the Mystery Tired, stupid question but how do you sleep most nights? Do you have a hard time getting to sleep? Wake up tired or maybe congested? Anything like that?

I ask because I've been feeling somewhat the same and recently I picked up a humidifier and an air purifier and my sleep difference is quite noticeable after 4 days now. Just a thought

[dizietsma.livejournal.com]

something that helps me to balance things is to think of my "down time" as busy time, as a high-priority commitment, something that must be treated equally to all those other important things. when i think of it as slack time i find myself worrying about what else i could be doing instead which kind of spoils the mood and makes me want to not organize any more of it for myself.

Do Nothing

[blackbuffet.livejournal.com]

This will sound more than strange but you need to fit yourself some "Do Nothing" time to rest your brain just like you sleep to rest your body. I have worked the evening shift for quite a while (slightly earlier than you but around the same time frame) and one thing I found very annoying is not being able to optimize and take full advantage of the time I had left in mornings or late nights to get everything done...

I was then promply suggested to take some time doing nothing. Whether it be 15 minutes, 30 minutes or an hour... You need a little down time to help you get energized to tackle down that way-too-busy schedule.

Oh... and when I mean Nothing... I MEAN NOTHING. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. (Maybe pet the Feline Forces of Entropy.)