So, y'know, maybe I should update once in a while

[mousme]

Hi world! My name is Phnee, and I have been living inside my head since late last October.

So, I'd apologize for being AWOL and not reading LJ and as a result missing everyone's news and not commenting and all that... except that I have a vague feeling that all I've been posting here (when I do post) are apologies, interspersed with random stupidness.

So, uh. Yeah. I dunno. I got nothin'.


You'd think that with the return of the sun, I'd be back to my old self. I sort of am, but I'm sort of not. I'm okay with people once I'm out and with them, but I have to kick myself in the pants to get there.

The short version is that I've been ignoring the real world in favour of a couple of fantasy worlds. They're a lot shinier, don't involve peak oil or the Canadian government, and while the problems in them are pretty awful, they aren't my problems, and that makes them fun to disappear into for a while. Like, five months or so. Anyway.

There's no one big reason for all this. For the most part, I'm okay. I'm not hiding in a corner all depressed and angst-ridden and what have you. I'm just not interacting at all much with my regular internet folk, and the longer I go without checking LJ the guiltier I feel about it, and the more overwhelming it seems because I know I'll never be able to catch up.

In short? I suck. I owe a million people emails, I'm behind on a ton of semi-obligations to friends, and I have been getting sad phone messages from my mother because I haven't spoken to her in a while (which isn't exactly true: I saw her last week and speak to her on the phone regularly, but she doesn't think that counts).

Okay, in retrospect, maybe I should apologize. It just feels inadequate for how much I've been sucking at keeping in touch with anyone lately. :(

Comments

[mieszko.livejournal.com]

don't worry, but you were missed while you were gone.

[tcaptain.livejournal.com]

Not speaking for anyone else but no apologies needed here.

As long as you are fine, hale and whole...the little part of my world/consciousness that is set aside for all things Phnee is shiny.

Of course it's shinier when one gets to see Phnee once in a while...but given the last few months all around, I have learned patience :)

[sassy-fae.livejournal.com]

Yay, more Phnee!
I've noticed your absence, but I've been doing nearly the same thing as you. If you were to go back in my journal, you'd notice sporadic and depressy/anxious updates, sprinkled with memes and the like. Very much living in my own head, too.

But Spring is here, lady! Granted, the effects aren't immediate, but I bet you the warmer sun and budding trees are going to make the outside world just a little more tolerable :D Also, you have some very cool gardening space that you're going to be able to utilise in the near future: I loved the tour you and George gave us last year!

*snuggles for you and the kitties*

[guruwench.livejournal.com]

Yay, it's Phnee! :D

I understand, hon, about the disappearance part - I've done something of a disappearing act too.

*pats the kitties and hugs the Phnee*