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So much for sanity
L isn't here for the morning. She should be back soon, but things have been sort of crazy since she hasn't been around.
Obviously things have been kind of roller-coaster-y for me since November, for those of you who haven't noticed. :P November will do that to me. So, when the metro tracks start to look tempting, it's time to do something about it. (Yes, I'm being flippant. Deal.) So my meds doc and I decided that maybe we should experiment a little with an SSRI at a low dose and see if we can't trick my brain into not trying to off me during the holidays. Also, fiddling with the dosage of the anticonvulsants, to see if that helps. Whee.
You know, it would be nice to have a birthday go by when I'm not actually feeling suicidal. I don't think I've had one of those in a while, not that you can tell by reading my LJ (I think that might be a good thing, actually).
So, anyway, the point is: meds change. Meds fiddling. Already feeling a bit loopy, and I've had to correct bazillions of typos in this post already.
I figured this post ought to serve as a warning, in case the meds change doesn't work and I end up going completely crazy. It has happened in the past. So, consider yourselves warned.
Then again, I don't think I've been exactly pleasant to be around in the past few months. So, you have my apologies for that as well.
Happy trails, folks!
Obviously things have been kind of roller-coaster-y for me since November, for those of you who haven't noticed. :P November will do that to me. So, when the metro tracks start to look tempting, it's time to do something about it. (Yes, I'm being flippant. Deal.) So my meds doc and I decided that maybe we should experiment a little with an SSRI at a low dose and see if we can't trick my brain into not trying to off me during the holidays. Also, fiddling with the dosage of the anticonvulsants, to see if that helps. Whee.
You know, it would be nice to have a birthday go by when I'm not actually feeling suicidal. I don't think I've had one of those in a while, not that you can tell by reading my LJ (I think that might be a good thing, actually).
So, anyway, the point is: meds change. Meds fiddling. Already feeling a bit loopy, and I've had to correct bazillions of typos in this post already.
I figured this post ought to serve as a warning, in case the meds change doesn't work and I end up going completely crazy. It has happened in the past. So, consider yourselves warned.
Then again, I don't think I've been exactly pleasant to be around in the past few months. So, you have my apologies for that as well.
Happy trails, folks!