Incoherence

[mousme]

It's late, and I'm incoherent.

No, really.

My thoughts are making little to no sense right now.

Hence this post being in small increments of one sentence at a time. (Grammer bad, right now. Please bear with me)

Many, many things going on all at once, all in my head. Something good may come of this.

Reading an interesting book. Nearly finished it, actually. "Guérir" by David Servan-Schreiber (it means "to heal" in French). Interesting look at alternative but proven methods to helping/healing psychiatric disorders (he concentrates on depression, anxiety, and PTSD).

Anyway. Brain not cooperating with me. It keeps telling me I should kill myself, and while I keep arguing with it, my arguments are getting weaker. I think the book helped a bit, though. More on that tomorrow, when I've got my thoughts more sorted out.

Going to a concert tomorrow. Yee!

Okay. Brain really making no sense now, and very much interfering with this post. I'll quit while I'm not-so-ahead and call it a night, methinks.

Comments

[angelovernh.livejournal.com]

DO NOT kill yourself!!!!
That is VERBOTEN!

LIVE!

What do you want to do with your life? I'm definitely unhappy with mine right now, but death is just not an option. I know I'd come back and have to start all over again, probably with even more difficult challenges!

[mousme.livejournal.com]

Don't worry... I'm still in the process of arguing with my brain on that particular topic. While it makes some good points re: the end of my problems, I'm a Catholic, and I'm not sure that Hell wouldn't be an exact replica of what I'm going through now except I'd feel this way for eternity.

At least while I'm alive there's a possibility it'll end. :P

I'm thinking very hard about what I want for my life. More noodling on this to come in LJ once I've sorted out my thoughts.

Thanks, though. I appreciate it. :)

[fordcov.livejournal.com]

killing self = BAD.
no two ways about it, simple equation.
So, to reiterate, no killing self because that is irrefutably bad, and hence not something that should be bad. Think of it as eviscerating a kitten, just much much much worse. Now, I wouldn't eviscerate a kitten, would you?
*smile*
(its late, I get gruesome when its late, my apologies)

[mousme.livejournal.com]

Ack! No eviscerating kittens, you!

Like I said, so far there will be no killing of self. No worries. I'm just having to argue with my brain on this matter a lot lately, so it's getting kind of exhausting. However, I like to think I'm putting up a good fight. ;)

*hugs*

Thanks for the kind (if disturbing) words. :)

[joane.livejournal.com]

{{{{{hugs}}}}} sweetie! Coherent can be overrated, but it's niec once in a while. [snuggles] Call if you need me, k?

[mousme.livejournal.com]

*squish*

Always. :)

Coherence, IMNSHO, is pretty darned nice. Much better than being completely incoherent. Stupid brain. One day I will have complete mastery over it, and then I SHALL RULE THE WORLD! BWAHAHAHAAA!

...

Ahem. ;)

Anyway, thank you, sweetie. I adore you beyond words, you know that?

*smooch*

[joane.livejournal.com]

[sighs happily] Shooting you was one of the best violent moves I've ever made. :)

(That sounds all kinds of wrong out of context, doesn't it?)

[mousme.livejournal.com]

*scratches head*

Remind me of the context? I seem to be drawing a blank, here. Unless I'm reading your sentence wrong.

Either way, I'm kind of lost.

Was this in a game? I don't recall your shooting me...

[joane.livejournal.com]

when we first met - I was manning the Gamer's Guild table at Clubs' Night in the Shatner building, and I had my new Nerf gun with me. You walked by, I thought you were cute, and I shot you twice. :) Victor can corroborate - he was there at the time.

[mousme.livejournal.com]

Wow. I'd completely forgotten about that. I remember meeting you and Victor that night and being attracted by the Pendragon book and agreeing to stop by the Guild at some point (which I did the next day, since it was on the same floor as the Women's Union, where I volunteered).

Shooting me with the nerf gun was definitely a good plan. :)

[djs-specs.livejournal.com]

*grumble* You're not home... Drop me a line okay sweets - need to tell you about the hotties I saw tonight... Last night... Whatever ;)

[mousme.livejournal.com]

Uh, you'll need to give me your phone number, sweetheart. :)

I got your message, btw. Drunk!Danielle is very amusing. Did you meet someone nice, hmm? ^_-

[djs-specs.livejournal.com]

Alas, I did not. Spent most of the night secretly drooling over all the leather-clad girlies though. I swear, that place would be paradise for a leather fetishist ;)

[djs-specs.livejournal.com]

Just in case you don't get my YM, my phone number is:

+61 07 4634 4004

Call me whenever you need to hon (same goes for you both joane and shenlo) - even if its the middle of the night. I promise I'll try not to snarl too much if you do :)