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I am Phnee, hear me whinge
Okay, this is pure self-pity. You've been warned.
Right now, for some reason, it seems that everywhere I look, everyone I know is working at something they truly love, or at the very least find fulfilling in some way.
:::tries to shove green-eyed monster back in closet:::
I'm disabling comments on this because, well, it's nothing I really want to discuss. Mostly I'm jealous and upset because I can't figure out exactly what the point was in my life where I started screwing up so badly that I'm now doing something I loathe for very little pay and no benefits and no respect whatsoever.
I don't resent other people for having what I don't have, but I despise myself for not being good enough to end up anywhere but here.
I really don't like this job. I don't like the way I feel when I work here, and I don't like the kind of person I'm becoming because of it. I just hope that I can make this all change.
Right now, for some reason, it seems that everywhere I look, everyone I know is working at something they truly love, or at the very least find fulfilling in some way.
:::tries to shove green-eyed monster back in closet:::
I'm disabling comments on this because, well, it's nothing I really want to discuss. Mostly I'm jealous and upset because I can't figure out exactly what the point was in my life where I started screwing up so badly that I'm now doing something I loathe for very little pay and no benefits and no respect whatsoever.
I don't resent other people for having what I don't have, but I despise myself for not being good enough to end up anywhere but here.
I really don't like this job. I don't like the way I feel when I work here, and I don't like the kind of person I'm becoming because of it. I just hope that I can make this all change.