(I have this theory that poly is a big lie that people play on each other and themselves. I suspect it doesn't actually exist; if it did, the people involved would all always be happy, right? I suspect it's really one person who, for mostly selfish reasons, decides they are, and then their partner goes along with it to please them and save the relationship.)

ANYWAY ... It really sucks, and I'm sorry. You are so wise to know you're not wired that way, and so right to not go further with it. It's kind to her, and kind to yourself.

But yeah. Still sucks.
xoxox