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Not a real update, but I guess I'll take what I can get...
It is fucking HOT!!!!!
I hate hate HATE hot weather. It makes me wilt like a very unattractive begonia.
Me, summarised in as few words as I can muster: hot (duh), busy, depressed, kinda guilt-ridden.
Am on self-imposed withdrawal from nastyevilhorrid!drugs which haven't been doing anything for me for months except fuck with my moods and cause evil discontinuation side effect-type symptoms.
What does that mean? I feel like crap on a stick.
I have loads and loads of updating to do about the truly fantabulous weekend I had up at The Shack,![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
fearsclave's country place, but I can't summon the energy to do it. Of course, it doesn't help that every time I sit in front of my computer I start dripping sweat. Oh, or else I get dizzy or nauseous or all of the above. :P
Stupid weather.
Stupid pills.
Stupid orcs.
I can't go toangelevangeline's graduation this weekend, and I have to phone her and tell her. More guilt. It's fucking $200 for bus fare to get to Oshawa! I don't have $200 to my name right now... then I have to pay rent and pay for my car... oh, and maybe eat... *cries*
She's going to be so disappointed and so hurt, and it just kills me.
I hate doing this to my friends. I hate being a flighty flake, but in this case it's something I have to do consciously in order to keep my stupid finances in order.
I can't go by car (it would cost about the same in gas, if not more), definitely can't go by train or plane, because it's more expensive. Could someone please tell me why fiscal responsibility sucks so much? *beats head against wall*
More later.
Oh, and yes, more insomnia tonight! Yay! Nothing like being awake at 4am in a stiflingly hot apartment to put one in a good mood.
I hate hate HATE hot weather. It makes me wilt like a very unattractive begonia.
Me, summarised in as few words as I can muster: hot (duh), busy, depressed, kinda guilt-ridden.
Am on self-imposed withdrawal from nastyevilhorrid!drugs which haven't been doing anything for me for months except fuck with my moods and cause evil discontinuation side effect-type symptoms.
What does that mean? I feel like crap on a stick.
I have loads and loads of updating to do about the truly fantabulous weekend I had up at The Shack,
fearsclave's country place, but I can't summon the energy to do it. Of course, it doesn't help that every time I sit in front of my computer I start dripping sweat. Oh, or else I get dizzy or nauseous or all of the above. :PStupid weather.
Stupid pills.
Stupid orcs.
I can't go to
angelevangeline's graduation this weekend, and I have to phone her and tell her. More guilt. It's fucking $200 for bus fare to get to Oshawa! I don't have $200 to my name right now... then I have to pay rent and pay for my car... oh, and maybe eat... *cries*She's going to be so disappointed and so hurt, and it just kills me.
I hate doing this to my friends. I hate being a flighty flake, but in this case it's something I have to do consciously in order to keep my stupid finances in order.
I can't go by car (it would cost about the same in gas, if not more), definitely can't go by train or plane, because it's more expensive. Could someone please tell me why fiscal responsibility sucks so much? *beats head against wall*
More later.
Oh, and yes, more insomnia tonight! Yay! Nothing like being awake at 4am in a stiflingly hot apartment to put one in a good mood.
Re: I wish to...
Yes, I should've tapered, but I'd forgotten my meds while up at El Shack for four days, and was already a mess, so I figured I may as well just ride it out for another few days.
I figure I've got maybe one to three days of really mild discomfort left on that level.
If you have money, get air conditioning for yourself. Am off today to go investigate the possibilities. :)
*smooch*
Re: I wish to...
I missed you! *smooch*
Re: I wish to...
I hear ya on the no money thing. :P
Am going to scrape funds out of nowhere to see if I can get A/C, because it's almost unbearable here.