mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (A Little Worship)

Clearly, it's not working for me. I used to post to LJ a million times a day, but that was before Twitter gave me an outlet for all those random thoughts that pop into my head that I feel compelled to share with the world. ;)

So nowadays I wait until I feel I have something of substance to say in order to post here, but let's face it, I rarely have anything of substance to say these days. It's all fleeting thoughts and superficial impressions, all the time!

Volunteering and Google Alert Weirdness! )

Rambling about routines and health and sleep and stuff )

I think later this week I'll make a more upbeat post with all the new projects I want to do in my copious amounts of spare time. Those are a lot more fun than all this whining about being tired and out of shape and not having enough time or energy to do things. So, an upbeat post to look forward to!

This has been a rambly, long-winded post. Thank you for bearing with me as I basically process everything in my head out loud. ;)

Argh.

Jan. 11th, 2014 12:05 pm
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (If Life Were Fair)
Work has scheduled extra training for me on Wednesday, which means yet another night of coming home much later to Montreal than I wanted or planned to. Woe.

I will simply have to try to make use of the "extra" time I'll have on Tuesday now. Maybe I can get the car registered in Ontario, if I time everything correctly. I might even be able to get some writing done, depending on how things go.

I'm not overly thrilled, though, because the timing on this week was going to be tight enough as it was. Now that I'm losing an extra day, my schedule is going to be crammed to capacity. Oh well, it's not like I need sleep or down time.

I'll try for a more coherent post later. Right now, there needs to be coffee in my immediate future. The blood levels in my caffeine stream are about to become critical. ;)

*whistles*

Sep. 21st, 2010 12:21 pm
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Despondent (Ratatouille))
Holy hell am I in a mood today. Probably not the best time to start posting on LJ again, but oh well.

My day started off poorly with a phone call to the SAAQ, and we all know how well Phnee reacts to being told how to live her life by bureaucrats. *stabbitykill*

Anyway, I am in a mood. Probably hormone-related, but that knowledge somehow does not make me feel better in the slightest.

I'm in a weird place, head-space-wise. I am mostly okay. The job is fine, finances are okay, cats are in good health, parents are doing well. Actually, the job is being unpleasant in one respect, but I keep putting off talking about that too. It needs to go under f-lock, because it's work, and I don't feel like dwelling on it, especially since everyone is making a mountain out of a molehill.

I'm just feeling a bit stuck. The career plan isn't going as quickly as I thought it would, which is partly my fault, and partly my being unrealistic about how much needed to go into the process. Not my fault, I just didn't have all the facts to hand. I'm currently revising my expectations. Stay tuned.

The new work schedule is good in terms of how much sleep I'm able to get now, but sucks on every other level. I don't get to see people anymore, and I miss my friends. There are people I only talk to online with whom I haven't spoken in forever, as well. This is mostly my fault, although in one case the last time we spoke it was a little unpleasant and I'm kind of worried that I've been written off and I'm too chicken to email and ask if that's the case. (Phnee is an emo princess, we get it, let's move on)

And to top it all off (and this I ascribe mostly to hormones and lack of sleep in the past few days), my cousin got married this weekend (she's a few years younger than me) and there are batches of new babies all over, and while I am thrilled for everyone, all it's doing today is reminding me that I am all alone and will probably never have children and will definitely never get married in my church according to the mysteries of my religion. The kicker? All of that is no one's doing but my own. In short, fuck me.

Right. I am off to find a ladder in order to get over myself. Carry on, nothing to see here.
mousme: An RCMP officer in ceremonial uniform swinging around a horizontal bar. (Maintain the Right)
I miss my weekends.

There was a Cute Girl From Vermont who expressed interest, then backed off as though I had scalded her when I mentioned that, due to the Olympics, my schedule was FUBAR until the end of March. I can't blame her, but I'm disappointed.

Meow.


Work switched my schedule around this weekend so I'd be working days instead of nights, so I have to miss [livejournal.com profile] maya_banana's baby shower tomorrow, which SUCKS.

My father wanted to take me and my mother to the theatre sometime soon, too, but between my schedule and the paucity of available tickets, we can't all go at the same time. It would have worked if I was free on weekends, ironically, but since I don't have any free weekends for the next forseeable EVER, I guess that's right out.

Sometimes I have to remind myself very forcefully of why I like this job.
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Winter Is Coming)
So the next three days involve me and work and very little else. Joy.

I still hate November. It is kicking my ass hardcore this year, and I'm not entirely sure why. I am all paranoid and anxiety-ridden lately. It's not crippling or anything, but I would very much like it do be over and done with, THANK YOU.

On the plus side, my stomach is no longer trying to stage a military coup, and so for that I am grateful. Small mercies, and all.
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Rabbit Poker)
One hour until I go home! Whee!

In less exciting news, work moved my schedule around and now I'm working an extra day this week. 'Cause what I REALLY wanted was to spend Friday night at work. Fleh. I had plans, dammit! Okay, so mostly they involved sleeping, but still!

Meh.

Nov. 9th, 2009 07:20 pm
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Terse)
12 hours of night shift.

Don't wanna.

If it's quiet, I will be writing. If not, well, who knows?

Owie...

Nov. 6th, 2009 04:57 pm
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Go Away)
Appointment at the gym this afternoon. Am now a temporary resident of the Land of Owie™.

Writing has been a slog. With luck, that will improve.

It's weird to be off again after only two days of work. I think I'm going to enjoy this new schedule. :)

Depressing stuff that's not all that interesting )
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Dreaming (Ratatouille))
It is WEIRD not to be at work today. New schedule has started, so I only work on Wednesday this week. A two-day week, imagine. The mind boggles.

Novelling has been a hell of a slog today. So far I'm clocking in just shy of 3,000 words. Maybe I'll be able to make it to 5K by the end of the day, but maybe not. Oh well. I refuse to angst about it. I have to get over this little hangup I have about producing the same wordcount per day as I did in 2006. I think that was a one-time fluke. NaNo is a marathon, not a sprint.

Otherwise today has been spent sitting quietly with the cats. They are all sleeping, doubtless plotting nefarious evilness telepathically. No good can come of this.

Blargh.

Oct. 27th, 2009 08:01 am
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Dead Baby Possum)
I overslept. There's nothing like waking up, looking at your clock, and realizing that it's ten minutes past the time you'd have to leave in order to be on time.

I made it to work in reasonable time, but I am groggy and out of sorts now. Feh.

I really want a coffee.
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Cats See Futures)
I just realized that apart from one errand I'm going to run with a friend Saturday morning, I have the whole entire weekend to myself. That hasn't happened to me since... *checks agenda* July, or thereabouts.

Yeesh.

I'm going to take this as a sign. Once my errand on Saturday is done, I am going to stay home all weekend long and catch up on the quiet stuff that I haven't had a chance to get to for ages, if ever.

I need to put the garden to bed for the winter, finish putting together my shelves, and set up my new office space in the basement. Oh, and I need to do some cooking. November is right around the corner, and I'm going to need to make sure I have plenty of food to see me through the month.

I am also going to go to bed at a decent hour, watch some TV, and generally enjoy my alone time with the cats.

Phooey.

Sep. 25th, 2009 08:59 pm
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Woe. And darkness. And teh sad.)
I'm not going to work at the Olympics after all. I am very disappointed, and more than a little bitter about how they announced it to us.

There are only two "good" things to come of this. The first is that I don't have to figure out what to do with the cats for six weeks. The other is that I won't be spending six weeks away from home and my routines.

I gotta say, it's a pretty small consolation.
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Sisyphus)
We're getting a new schedule in November. I've probably written about that before, not too long ago. I think the new schedule will be better for me, overall. I'll be working twelve-hour shifts, which means fewer days at the office, but longer hours. It's a trade-off. It means I'll never have the problem of having to work seven night shifts in a row, which is a HUGE bonus for me. Night shift does nothing good for me.

Near as I can figure, the pattern is as follows: three days on, two days off, two days on, two days off. I spend two weeks a month doing that pattern on day shift: 07:00 to 19:00, and two weeks on night shift: 19:00 to 07:00. It's going to take some serious adjustment, but I think I can do it. For one thing, I'm going to end up working only about half the days of the year, which is really awesome. I'm a bit worried about the two weeks' worth of night shift, but I'm told by people who've worked twelve-hour shifts before that it's way easier than seven nights in a row.

The other bonus is that every six weeks or so I'll have "earned" a day off, by virtue of having worked a few too many hours. So I'll end up with a four-day weekend roughly every month and a half, and that's without touching my vacation time at all. I've already got a pretty significant backlog of vacation time anyway, by virtue of having worked so much overtime in the past couple of years: I took all my vacations from my "banked" time rather than my annual vacation, and my bank is still pretty full.

Yet another advantage is that, unlike my current rotating schedule, which varies all the freaking time, I'll be able to time myself like a metronome. The schedule will remain fixed, with no variation at all. That means I might actually be able to get a routine going. I like routines: they make my life go much more smoothly.


For the moment, I'm stuck on the current schedule until October 30th. That means that in the meantime I have to do all the turn-of-the-season stuff while still working ridiculous shifts. I'm sure I can get most if not all of it done, but I do wish that they'd decided to start the new schedule in October.

I just got a pressure canner! I am very excited, although my enthusiasm was dampened by the *expletive deleted* extra shipping charge that got tacked on AT MY DOOR. Gnarr.

So now I have to get my act together and start canning like a mad canning thing. For one, all the tomatoes that were likely to ripen have ripened, and if I put it off much longer, then they will go bad. In fact, I should freeze 'em, so that they don't go off before I can can them. *goes to do just that* I'm not sure what to do with the rest of them. The poor Brandywines haven't ripened, and I'm not sure if I can mix the green Brandywines with the other green tomatoes in order to make chutney, but I don't see why not.

I want to start canning in larger quantities this year. I've been poking at the Bernardin book and Ball Blue Book of Canning, and with any luck I'll have a lot more homemade food this year. I want to try my hand at canning soups and stews and the like, which ought to make bringing lunches to work much easier. I hope.

Most of the plants in the garden have bolted at this point, but overall for a first attempt at a garden I'm quite pleased. I have to put everything to bed in the next few weeks, and I'm going to try to get my hands on some fertilizer to spread on all the beds for the duration of the winter. Next spring I'll put in some more, and with any luck the weather will be better and I'll have a gorgeous new crops. There's a lot of planning in my future, and, with any luck, with the new schedule at work I'll have time to implement it all.
mousme: A text icon, dark green text on pale green, that reads There is no normal life. There's just life. (No Normal Life)
To quote [livejournal.com profile] fearsclave. I'm off by a few minutes, but oh well. :)

Night shift is back, and kicking my behind. I'm not surprised. I'll be back where I need to be in a few days, sleep-wise, so it's not the end of the world. Tonight I have tidying to do, and I have to figure out something for dinner.

Otherwise, things are pretty good.

I have a pile of tomatoes waiting to be canned. I hope they'll hold out until I can get to them.

In other news, the new work schedule is out, unofficially, but I haven't seen much of it. I *do* get an extra day off every six weeks, which is nice. It means every six weeks I essentially get a four-day weekend, which is pretty awesome. Unfortunately, two weekends a month will now be spent at work. I hope they actually post it officially tonight so I can start planning my schedule properly for the next six months or so.

I also wish they'd tell me if I'm going to the Olympics to work or not. If I do, it's possible I'll be there for six weeks running, so I have to know ahead of time so I can figure out what to do with the cats while I'm gone. Six weeks is a long time to ask people to come by and look after them, but it's also really long to board them all to the tune of several hundred dollars a week. Right now I'm thinking of asking someone (not that I know who) to come and housesit while I'm gone.

Of course, the Olympics will also take me away right when I ought to be prepping seeds for the garden, but that's a lesser concern right now.
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Television)
I slept in today. Didn't get to sleep until very early this morning, which was likely the result of all the caffeine and sugar I ingested last night. Since I'm starting a night shift this week I'm not overly fussed. Flipping my sleep schedule around won't be much of a problem.

I'm finishing up the second season of Prison Break, which has resulted in some pretty intense dreams. In some ways the show is even more violent and horrific than 24, and that's saying something. I think it's probably not a coincidence that these two shows aired back-to-back on Fox.

Sometime in the next couple of days I am going to get my act together and try to get a proper routine started again. I had one going in July, but after WorldCon I never got back on track.

Starting in November, I will be starting a new work schedule, based on twelve-hour shifts. It means fewer days spent at work in a given week, but it also means that I'll be working one weekend out of two for the foreseeable future. So, good news and bad news. On the whole, though, I'm pleased about the change. It means that I'll never have to work seven days straight on a night shift anymore, for one thing, which is awesome. It also means that I'll be able to take a bit more time off, due to various administrative curly-cues. Good times.

With the new schedule in place, I'm hoping that I'll be able to get my life back into a semblance of order and productivity. Right now I feel like I've been at loose ends forever. Sure, stuff has been getting done, but not nearly at the pace I would like.

Updates as events warrant.
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Despondent (Ratatouille))
I'm working the weekend of September 26th, which means that once again I am going to miss out on what promises to be a wonderful gathering of friends.

With the new schedule change, I'm going to be working more weekends after this, too.

*sigh*

I love my job, but the hours suck.
mousme: A text icon, dark green text on pale green, that reads There is no normal life. There's just life. (No Normal Life)
Three more days of night shift. Tonight, and then two twelve-hour stretches this weekend. Yechh.

I have been reasonably productive today. I did a load of laundry and hung it out to dry, which is more than I usually get done during my night shifts. Actually, this whole week has been pretty good, productivity-wise. Either I'm getting used to night shift, or else it's because there's so much extra light out there and I'm just not sleeping as much this week.

I really ought to do my dishes. Don't feel like it. :P


[livejournal.com profile] sandman7's concert was last night. It was charming, and [livejournal.com profile] sandman7 himself was great, as usual. He performed from Phantom of the Opera, Dr. Jekyll & Mr. Hyde, and Le Blues du Businessman, all of which were a pleasure. I had lots of fun, and it was great seeing everyone again. Plus, [livejournal.com profile] owldaughter gave me a lift to work after, which was awesome.


Now I have to have "breakfast" and get going. I have an appointment at the gym, and after that I'm due at work. Busy, busy, busy. I just wish I was less tired.
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Reason is a Flawed Tool)
Why, oh why, do I always fool myself into thinking that I can get lots of stuff done during my night shift?

Today, I am apparently continuing in my quest of hopeless optimism, since I am yet again going to try to get stuff done.

Clearly, I am not playing with a full deck.

Tomorrow, however, I am going to spend all freaking day sleeping until it's time to go to [livejournal.com profile] sandman7's concert. No more running around.

Erf.

May. 29th, 2009 10:54 am
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Dead Baby Possum)
Tired!Cat is tired.

This doesn't bode well for next week, when I get to do seven night shifts in a row. Tomorrow there's a wedding, which is going to be wonderful but not exactly restful. Oh well, after next week I have time off, so it's all to the good.

My supervisor called this morning and asked me to work overtime today, and I said no. Did I mention I was tired? 'Cause I am. :P

June is right around the corner. It feels really weird to have the year be half-over already. Time keeps going by faster and faster these days. Because it'll be summer and I always have a bit more energy in summer, I have made plans to get stuff done and start some new projects. Hopefully I won't be too burnt at the end of my night shift to get anything done.

If all goes well, June will be an exercise in balancing mind, body and spirit over here at Casa!Phnee. I have a few ideas about getting in more physical exercise, including getting back up on the bike, which has been neglected of late. Then there are a couple of creative projects I'm getting all cranked up about, and of course there's the ever-present nesting thing, which hasn't abated in the slightest even though I've stopped writing about it for fear that my entire flist will lapse into a coma from boredom. ;)

The trick will be to get enough sleep and still muster all the necessary energy and motivation to start on my projects and keep going with them. One thing I'll have to avoid is the television: it's a motivation killer. So I'm going to put a moratorium on all DVDs for the month of June, which ought to help in that department. No new DVDs (bought or borrowed) will mean no New!Shiny to distract me.


On a side note, to whom have I promised correspondence?

[livejournal.com profile] bodhifox, [livejournal.com profile] sirena73, [livejournal.com profile] chasingthenuns... anyone else? I'm making a list. I have Plans (Capital "P") for some of the correspondence, which is getting me all cranked up about it.

Did anyone else want a letter/postcard/something? If I forgot you, or you want in, let me know and send me your mailing address via email.
mousme: A view of a woman's legs from behind, wearing knee-high rainbow socks. The rest of the picture is black and white. (Random Sentences)
I am feeling the change in time, but not as keenly as my friends are, because my schedule is wacky anyway. This week I am "allowed" to get up after the sun is out, so it's not so bad. On days when I have to be up early, I'm up before the sun no matter what.

I am wearing a shirt that hasn't looked good on me since October, which pleases me. :D

All in all, in spite of being tired, I am in a good mood. Am going to the gym after work.

Oh, to the gang going to Hurley's on Wednesday: I will be there, but only starting at 18:30, as I'm working swing shift this week.

Back to work!

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